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Thursday, July 27, 2006

    Current song: First Love by Hikaru Utada

    Current mood: Feeling emo


    Suddenly had the urge of listening to the song. Reminds me of my own. I wonder how one knows that that was their first love. Which brings me back to the old but sweet memories. I remember reading this book titled also, 'My First Love', sadly I don't remember the author but I know its the Love Stories series. I can read that book repeatedly without getting bored and borrowed it from my sch library when I have the chance to cause it helps me to heal my broken heart at that moment I thought. Or maybe it does help a little. Reminiscing about the past sometimes can make me become tearful. Just thinking of the little little things, it has both the happy and sad moments.

    At that moment, I thought that person was my first love cause he's the first that teaches me how to cry my heart out for him for the longest period I ever know. Being with that person really teaches me how pain one heart can be when that person wanted a break-up. And it had a deep impact on my life cause I had to face that person everyday in sch. I still remember that most of my subject grades drop drastically cause of that person as it was damn painful for me to handle. I'm so lucky to have my friends who gave me encouragement and were always there for me. I'm really grateful for having them with me. Luckily, that one day I realised what has become of me and my studies. I decided to just forget about the matter cause I didn't want to disappoint my family just because of my love matters and buck up. Maybe that's how Allah wanted things to happen.

    I guess that person really taught me lessons about love I never knew and maybe that's why I consider him as my first love. That's for me. What about you people out there?? I'm sure you all have your own rendition of what your first love means to you. Well, all is up to oneself to keep and always treasure it eventhough it was a painful one. Cause it will never cross our path again and it was meant to teach us a lesson of our own and for us to learn from it so that history will not repeat itself. (Though sometimes it always do, right??)

    While the song brings back the memories, the lyrics is meaningful enough for to think of ...........(to those who knows, shhhhh!)

    Once in a while
    You are in my mind
    I think about the days that we had
    And i dream that these would all come back to me
    If only you knew every moment in time
    Nothing goes on in my heart
    Just like your memories
    How I want here to be with you
    Once more

    You will always gonna be the one
    And you should know
    How I wish I could have never let you go
    Come into my life again
    Oh, don't say no
    You will always gonna be the one in my life
    So true, I believe i can never find
    Somebody like you
    my first love

    Once in awhile
    Your are in my dreams
    I can feel the warmth of your embrace
    And I pray that it will all come back to me
    If only you knew every moment in time
    Nothing goes on in my heart
    Just like your memories
    And how I want here to be with you
    Once more
    yah yah yah

    You will always be inside my heart
    And you should know
    How I wish I could have never let you go
    Come into my life again
    Please don't say no
    Now and forever you are still the one
    In my heart
    So true, I believe I could never find
    Somebody like you
    My first love
    oh oh

    You will always gonna be the one
    And you should know
    How I wish I could have never let you go
    Come into my life again
    Oh, don't say no
    You will always gonna be the one
    So true, I believe I could never find
    Now and forever



    Pardon my emo entry today. You know sometimes you just have to let your feelings and emotion out no matter how much tears that is gonna flow down even if it flows like a waterfall. :)


    And where are you now?
    Now that I need you
    Tears on my pillow
    Wherever you go, go
    I'll cry me a river
    That leads to your ocean
    You'll never see me fall apart
    In the words of a broken heart

    It's just emotions, taking me over
    Caught up in sorrow, lost in the song
    But if you don't come back, come home to me darling
    Don't you know, there's nobody left in this world to hold me tight
    (Don't you know) there's nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight




    You are always gonna be my love
    I'll remember to love you taught me how
    You are always gonna be the one
    You will always be inside my heart
    I hope that I have a place in your heart too
    Now and forever you are still the one
♥ ana-ed @ 1:23 AM ♥












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