do you care whats on my mind

happy 22nd birthday hani!

2007-04-11T00:13:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY
DALILAH HANI BTE AHMAD

I pray that this year will bring you more SMILES and RAINBOWS into your life.
And to give you the LOVE and HAPPINESS that you always deserve.
Looking back Hani, we've come a long long way since secondary school.
The changes that we experience along the way really increase our maturity and bonded us and makes our friendship stronger to the point where we think alike and speaks almost the same thing.
That's where the 'snap-twist in my pocket' phrase always occures...hahha!!!
And and...the 'blur sotong' moments really cracks me up...never fail to do so!!
You know, you've always been there for me especially at 'that' time...if you know what I mean..
It really means alot to me whenever you are there for me when I needed someone!!(Oh, i'm getting mushy here..heheh)
I've always enjoyed your company and your presence.
I'm so blessed to have you as my friend in my life and pray that we'll be best of friends forever.
The moments we had will always be treasured and hopefully many more great moments to come.

Love ya loads! And miss ya loads!
Really hope to meet up with you soon too!!!
Alot of catching up to do!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN MY FRIEND!!

what's cooking

2007-03-28T17:30:00.000+08:00

Hmmm...So what did I do today??? Woke up early, bathed then folded the 'over the mountain' clothes...haha!!! KIDDING okay!!! Had a breakfast bar while wiping the kitchen cupboard. Then watched TV but it bored me soon enouh. So I resort myself to watch a philippine vcd, Forevermore. And oh, speaking of Philippine, I saw on the news that a bus full of children were taken hostage by which, apparently happen to be the day-care centre owner. Pity the kids. But atleast they get to eat and drink. And I heard the reason was to demand free education and free shelter for the poor children. Wah...to that extend??? But seeing from the country situation...no wonder lah... But anyways, the hostages will be freed at 7pm (live)...this I got to see for myself. Hope the kids are well and safe. Ok gotta go now to watch American Idol!! Woohooo!!!

ibu & ayah di dpn kaabah

2007-03-26T23:28:00.000+08:00

My mum MMS this picture of them in front of the Kaabah(not that clear though, but it's just beautiful)..I miss them!! Called and talked to my mum just now...Almost teared myself!!! Heheheh!!!

On a sad note:
My deepest condolences to my Baba's family. Baba passed away last night. I remembered the last time I met her was during the fasting month last year when I sent her favourite Gajus cookies.

And my deepest condolences too to my sis's friend's family. His mum passed away due to heart attack yesterday too.

Semoga Allah S.W.T mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh mereka. Amin.
Al-Fatihah.

i fell down!!!

2007-03-25T21:05:00.000+08:00

BREAKING NEWS!!

I fell down in the toilet
while bathing and cleaning the
toilet in the afternoon...ouchieee...!!

Then to add to that,
just now in the evening, I
knocked my head on the
wall at the void deck
while walking on the way
home with my sis....
Wahahha....sakit tau..
2 times in a day...
Boohoohoo!!

~~Lemony Snicket's~~ Farhana's Series Of Unfortunate Events

send-off

2007-03-25T10:21:00.000+08:00

So yesterday, we sent off my parents at the airport for their umrah. They'll be away for ten days...boohoohoo!! Though they've been away before even for a longer of period of time, this time it's just different. I just feel that as I grow older, I tend to get more attach to my parents. While they are away, hopefully I finish the things that are needed to be done at home. And oh, my parents will be spending their honeymoon there too. I know they will love it and it will definitely be a precious moment in their life together....hehehhe!!

PMS-ing

2007-03-20T18:46:00.000+08:00

No wonder I've been feeling so hot and perspiring alot yesterday. Even after I've taken a shower..I was also extra thirsty. Apparently, my girl bestfriend came to visit me. Like finally..y? Cause it didn't come for almost 3 months and I was kinda worried already. Now, it's here..so yeah...hahaha!!!

I don't want to lie to myself anymore what's more lying to you just breaks my heart. I've tried my best to make myself love you again but the feelings just not there anymore. I've searched deep down and think through alot the past days. At first I thought I still have feelings for you but I realised it's gone. I hope you don't feel that I've lead you on because I didn't promise you anything in the first too. I hope you don't blame me for all this because it's your fault too. Your 'cold' words have taken it's affect on me. You said you want us to be just friends. Then now, you're back in my life and saying that you want us to be together again. I'm sort of surprised by what you said and you've make me confuse. I don't even know what to do. If I say I miss you, I don't miss you but if I say I don't miss you, I miss you. I don't know how I feel towards you anymore. You yourself am not sure of your decision. So let's not rush anything and just stay as friends. It's for the better I think. Don't you think so??? For now, while you're away overthere, just take good care of yourself ok.

questionnaires

2007-03-20T11:49:00.000+08:00

Copy this from Abg Im's blog...some answers turns out same...hehhe

Love these questionnaires.

1. What time did you get up this morning? 7.39am bro & sis late for work & sch today.

2. Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds better.

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Just Friends.

4. What is your favorite TV show? Anything on Travel & Living.

5. What do you usually have for breakfast? Bread or half-boiled egg with milk or coffee.

6. What is your middle name? Ana?

7. What food do you dislike? Food that turn bad??

8. What is your favorite CD at the moment? No recent cd that is bought.

9. What kind of car do you drive? No license yet lah.

10. Favorite sandwich? Egg mayo or seafood mayo. Yummylicious.

11. What characteristic do you despise? Arrogance.

12. Favorite item of clothing? The brand new top worn over & over again.

13. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? Australia

14. What color is your bathroom? Blue.

15. Favorite brand of clothing? No specific brand.

16. Where would you retire to? Dubai.

17. What was your most recent memorable birthday? Two months ago with my lovely family and makcikz.

18. Favorite sport to watch? Volleyball.

19. Furthest place you are sending this? The furthest it'll go...

20. Who do you least expect to send this back to you? Everyone who wants to blog about this.

21. Person you expect to send it back first? No one to send but hopefully there's someone who'll do copy & do it.

22. Favorite saying? Really??

23. When is your birthday? 18th Jan.

24. Are you a morning person or a night person? Sometimes morning, sometimes night.

25. What is your shoe size? 8.

26. Pets? None.

27. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with us? Not the time yet to share lah.

28. What did you want to become when you were little? Teacher.

29. How are you today? PMS-ing.

30. What is your favorite candy? Blackcurrent & spearmint.

31. What is your favorite flower? Roses.

32. What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to? 18th Jan.

33. What is your full name? Siti Farhana bte Jumat.

34. What was the last thing you ate? Home-made cream puff.

35. Do you wish on stars? Yes, everytime i see stars i'm amazed.

36. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Brown.

37. How is the weather right now? Humid.

38. Last person you spoke to on the phone? A caller for my mum.

39. Do you like the person who sent this to you? I like who i took it from.

40. Favorite soft drink? Green tea.

41. Favorite restaurant? Al-Ameen.

42. Hair color? Black. i think i want to dye my hair.

43. Sibling? 3.

44. Favorite day of the year? Hari raya.

45. What was your favorite toy as a child? Barbie dolls.

46. Summer or winter? Summer for the beach. Winter for the snow.

47. Hugs or kisses? Hugs.

48. Chocolate or Vanilla? Vanilla.

49. Do you want your friends to email you back? Not the same questionnaires..of course.

50. When was the last time you cried? Yesternight while watching indonesian's Aku Takut Jatuh Cinta.
51. What is under your bed? Nothing.

52. Who is the friend you have had the longest? My pri & sec sch friends.

53. What did you do last night? A couch potato at home.

54. Favorite smell? Incanto Shine Perfume.

55. What are you afraid of? Heights and lizard.

56. Plain, buttered, or salted Popcorn? Any flavour but prefer sweet though.

57. How many keys on your key ring? 5.

58. How many years at your current job? All my life.

59. Favorite day of the week? Saturday.

60. How many towns have you lived in? 2.

61. Do you make friends easily? Yes.

62.How many people will you be sending this to? Anyone who wants to do this, your welcome to do so! :)

sun heat

2007-03-10T00:24:00.000+08:00

Arghh...I'm having such a bad splitting headache these past few days...Last Friday went to Geylang to buy cake boxes then made a short visit to my cousin's shop. The weather was pretty hot & the sun was glaring bright. Maybe that is the cause of my headaches or maybe I'm not having enough of my beauty sleep....heheh!! Or it may mean some other symptoms....???

That aside, got myself two new tops...hehe!!(it was love at first sight...hehehhe!!) It was just too irresistable..

Then today had to cancel my tuition lesson cause I couldn't stand the pain up to yesternight. Unbeareable for a moment till I can't even bent down my head to look down....I think I need to go for a check up routine.

So today, went to 2 wedding invites of my parents friends. I love wedding cause I get to meet people. Long-lost friends or if lucky enough, there times where more family connection will be made if you don't even know you're related to the family of the bride or the groom. But the uninteresting part will be where these people keep asking when's my turn to get married....Hello hello...How to get married if I even hadn't a job?? You all wanna sponsor can....hahahhah!! I will answer them, "Wait long long ah..." It will be sooo kecohrable....hahhahah!!!

Tomorrow will be another busy day for me...arghhhh!!! Help!! There are pictures to be upload but I'll do it when I'm well enough!!

There's someone out there for me
I know ~~she's~~he's waiting so patiently
Can you tell me ~~her~~his name?
This life long search is goin' drive me insane

I'm making the biggest decision of my whole life. Moulding the future. Scary.

gazing stars

2007-03-09T00:54:00.000+08:00

Sipping my cuppa iced green tea
and looking up above the sky
from my balcony.
Gazing just at the stars that
is decorating the dark sky.
Subhanallah.
Look at Allah's creation.
It's just so amazing.

I can just imagine myself being
in an open space.
Lying on the ground.
On the top of the hill
or better still on the beach.

Lying under the dark sky filled
with shining stars, so peaceful and calming.

It will be lovely if I can
share the moment with
that special someone.
Romantic it will be. Charmed.
~Precious~

I'm so awestricken by the starry night!

TAGGG!!

2007-03-07T00:34:00.000+08:00

This is so so fun..hehh!

Instructions:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 10 people to play this game too.
5. Bold the questions and answers that swack.
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How are you feeling today? Tidak Seindah Bahasa by Imran Ajmain

Will you get far in life? Unbelievable by Craig David

How do your friends see you? Ordinary People (Take It Slow) by Hady Mirza

Will you get married? Compromise by Imran Ajmain

What is your best friend's theme song? Usah Lepaskan by Taufik Batisah

What is the story of your life? Kata Orang by Imran Ajmain

What was high school like? Dip It Low by Christina Milian feat Fabolous

How can you get ahead in life? Without You by Duet with Clay Aiken & Kimberly Lorke

What is the best thing about your friends? Lelaki Idaman by Melly Goeslow

What is in store for this weekend? Sudah Tu Sudah by Imran Ajmain

What song describes you? One by Taufik Batisah

To describe your grandparents? If Only She Knew by Taufik Batisah

How is your life going? I Promise Forever by Taufik Batisah

What song will they play at your funeral? Teman Tapi Mesra by Ratu (still frens???)

How does the world see you? Taurus (Penawar Rindu) by Imran Ajmain

Will you have a happy life? Girlfight by Brooke Valentine

What do your friends really think of you? Sekali Ini Saja by Glenn Fredly

Do people secretly lust after you? All Because Of You by Taufik Batisah

How can I make myself happy? Holding On by Taufik Batisah

Will you ever have children? L.O.V.E by Ashlee Simpson

See any repetition?? Hahha!! Coincidentally?? I opened up my music library in real player and these are the songs I get out of the shuffling and forwarding.....I liiiiike the results.....!!!

Now, time to tag others...heheh
1.Atiqah
2.Faezah
3.Hana
4.Izzati
5.Others who feel like doing...hahaha!!

Shoes galore

2007-03-04T23:54:00.000+08:00

It's been awhile since I met Shak. So, I decided to meet up with her today. Planned to go to the career fair but changed due to some circumstances, only both of us know why, hahahha!! Right Shak?? Anyways, later we went on to have lunch. It was a sumptuous meal at Ramen Ten. I was craving for sushi so that's why...hehheh!! Coincidently, they were playing a Westlife songs back to back....Imagine us singing along with it...omigosh....wahaha!! That leads us to talk about sec sch times...haha!! How time flies huh??

So, what's next on the list when two ladies meet??? SHOPPING!!! It was shoes galore everywhere I tell you. SALE, SALE and SALE!!! Initially I didn't intend to shop for anything but the shoes I was wearing almost gave me blisters so I had to get one...heheh!! I know I know, its just an excuse to shop...haha!! Honestly, it was kinda tempting to get a new shoe...hehhe!! We had trouble finding the right shoe for Shak until we reach the only shop that has her size. Also, came across the new Incanto Shine perfume. Nice, sweet and woody smell. Another item to be added on my wishlist. Anyone??? Hahahah!!

It was really satisfying in the end..It was indeed a day full of laughter and lame jokes...We sure do have alot to tell each other...updating each other's life. We should do this often Shak...till the next outing....for now I'll make do with my almost blisters feet!! Bubble tea my treat k...

P.S. Hani, lets have bubble tea for our date??

missing...AWOL

2007-02-23T19:24:00.000+08:00

It's been awhile since I last blog. Though there are alot of stuff I wanna blog about but I can't seem to have the mood or lazy to blog anything. Alot of things have been going on in my life and I don't know where to start off with. But one thing I can say is that I'm gonna be Home Alone for 12 days. Well not that alone lah since my younger sis is around too but we are without parents supervision....hahha!! Insya allah they are going for their umrah come mid-March. Praying that everything goes well for them. AMIN.

our last kiss

tasted like tobacco

a bitter and sad smell

tomorrow, at this time

where will you be?

who will you be thinking about?

you are always gonna be my love

even if I fall in love with someone once again

I'll remember to love

you taught me how

you are always gonna be the one

it's still a sad song

until I can sing a new song

the paused time is

about to start moving

there's many things that I don't want to forget about

tomorrow, at this time

I will probably be crying

I will probably be thinking about you

you will always be inside my heart

you will always have your own place

I hope that I have a place in your heart too

now and forever you are still the one

it's still a sad song

until I can sing a new song

you are always gonna be my love

even if I fall in love with someone once again

I'll remember to love

you taught me how

you are always gonna be the one

it's still a sad song

until I can sing a new song

weird boy

2007-02-13T12:37:00.000+08:00

It's just so weird sometimes, when you could read my mind and my heart. It's as if you know what was I thinking and feeling at the moment.

It's funny how you are always in denial about everything when deep down you are feeling and thinking about the same thing as me.

Too weird. Too funny.

jobless...

2007-02-12T23:46:00.000+08:00

Will I eventually get myself a job??? Arghhh!!!

my bday celebration

2007-01-24T12:04:00.000+08:00

Ah, finally I have the blogging mood today..so here goes..

Last Saturday went out with my lovely makcikz. I didn't even know where we were going till I met up with Makcikz Rose. So then to Vivocity we went and met up with Makcikz Sue. All the while I was kept in suspicion. They had everything planned to celebrate my birthday. But its okay, birthdays are always full of surprises right?? No?? Hahah....

As usual, when the makcikz finally met up, everything else break loose....hahaa!! Took alot of pictures...posed here, posed there, posed everywhere...even our food are not spared...lolx!! Had our meals at Secret Recipe and then our coffee at Pacific Coffee instead of Starbucks because it was full house...

I wanna thanx my lovely lovely makcikz for the day spent together. I really appreciate it so so much you both go the 'trouble' of making it an interesting and precious day in my life. Thanx especially for all the treats on that day. I only spent on my jelly beans!! Next time will be my turn to treat you makcikz..k?? Next outing, Sentosa??

Later that night, went to the airport with the family to welcome home all the Haj pilgrims. Since only my parents are on duty, the three of us decided to go elsewhere to chill. And coincidently we were pretty hungry, we decided to get some food for supper cause it was already 1 a.m.!! Again I was treated to my food this time by my bro..heheh!! Then made our way to the viewing mall. We sat and eat while the radio's playing in the background and enjoying the view of the planes...hahah!!

our sexy foot...hahaha!!

bro & sis bored

All the memories not only captured in my pictures but my heart too..!! I love you my makcikz!!

moi 22nd bday!!!!!

2007-01-19T01:44:00.000+08:00

First and foremost, a BIG thank you to all for the birthday wishes!!
All my family
My cousins
All my friends
And my acquaintances

Most importantly, thanks to my dad cause he got me an early birthday present when he got me a new hp after so long, Sony Erics K800i is a pretty good phone, cybershot somemore...woohoo!! Now that I have a camera phone, I'll start camwhoring soon and joins the clan of my camwhoring makciks and my 'blur sotong' partner...heheheh!! Thanks alot Ayah, I know it will never be enough thank you(s) but I really love it and I love you too!!

A few days back we had a mini advance birthday celebration for me at Swensens. Just us family is enough to make my day and being with my love ones is ample for me. I don't need a BIG celebration. A simple family get together for a simple ME = Satisfied Me = Happy Me = A Happy Family. I know I don't say it often but I love my family to the core and will do anything for them. Sometimes love don't need to be in the form of words and saying but the most importantly, its through our sincere action towards one another. Family will always be there for you no matter what!!

Had dibai' today. Just a mini doa selamat for me & my grandparents anniversary. My mum cooked nasi kuning for me...hehe!! I love you too Ibu!! More than I dare to say it!! And I baked a cake for my grandparents, hope they like it!

P.S. And Hani, I'm so touched by all the words you've written on your blog. Of course I still remember the SMILE exchanged back then...biasalah, baru-baru masuk skola satu-satu semua malu cuma berbalasan senyuman yang manis tu je...hehehhe!! and to the last hug we had...gosh! time really flies fast and we've been best of friends for 9 years already?? wow!! Yes, may we see through many many years to come. INSYA ALLAH. And more 'blur sotong' moments will be unveil right??....hahahha!! I'm really flattered!! *huggies* (mcm brand pampers...kan kan???) hahhaha!! Love you no matter what even if you have a bad hair day k.*muacks*

im 22 already!!!

2007-01-18T00:00:00.000+08:00

turn 22.
happy.
still jobless.
bf-less.
yet happy.
crazy.
blur-sotong.
still happy.
more resposibility.
more gray hairs.
still happy.
always smiling.
always laughing.
life goes on.

macritchie reservoir

2007-01-13T00:48:00.000+08:00

Woke up early in the morning, met up with my aunt and together went to Macritchie Reservoir. A few days before, she asked if I wanted to follow her hiking so I say why not. Plus, I've never been to the HSBC Treetop Walk and it sounds interesting. It was literally a wet day but it didn't dampen our spirit to carry on as planned. Reached Macritchie and joined my aunt's acquaintance, there was nine of them and all are guys...I wasn't aware of that beforehand...hahaha!! But so what? I'm there to take a walk not to mengorat or attract attention. And I was told that they are going hiking at Gunung Tahan which is in Pahang. Wow....adventurous right??

Anyways, the first part of the walk was okay and me & sis was pretty ambitious. The trek was wet and slippery. I couldn't care less if I got wet since there's puddle of water everywhere..hahah!! When we finally reached the treetop and were walking on the bridge...I was saying finally we reached the top to myself. I must say that the view from the top is really beautiful and cold(romantic?). Very the nice you know...who knows I might make the trip there again. And it was pretty high and I'm kinda acrophobic but not to the extend, as long I don't look down below I'll be fine....hehehhe!!

So I thought the walking up is the challenge but wrong cause its the walking down is the challenge. You see, as I was happily walking down I felt the leg cramps and slowly it was taking its toll on me but I braved myself and take it as a 'mini challenge' to finish the walk. I was walking very carefully and am alert at every step I took cause I don't wanna fall on the wet mud...hahah!! There was I preventing myself from falling, suddenly I heard a thud and a shriek!! Then I saw my sister who slipped and fell....poor her...hehe!! As a result she got a bruise on her left hip but that can't compare to my legs cramp okay...hahah!! And I brought home a pair of cramped legs...I can barely walk especially when climbing up the stairs...arghh!! Hahahh!!

After that went for lunch at Banquet CP...sempat lagi..heheh!! Then we parted ways while my aunt goes home at Jurong West.

Later at night, went to my granparents house for makan-makan to celebrate their advance 22nd wedding anniversary which coincidently falls on my bday too...hehhe!!

P.S. time flies so fast..

charlotte's web

2007-01-12T04:21:00.000+08:00

Met with Siti last Wednesday. Planned had wanted to go to Bugis but she's too tired & lazy to travel the distance...hehhe!! I'm kidding gerl! So we decided on a movie instead and ended up watching Charlotte's Web. Then walked around at the Pasar malam and Siti, thanx for the top though I'll be paying you back for it...hehhe!! Apparently, her appetite was big that day and wanted to go eat ice-cream, cake and the lists go on....hahahha!! After alot of "entahlah...aku pon tak tau nak makan kat mane...", and we were actually at the mrt platform still unsure where to eat, we decided to go CP for our ice-cream at KFC. And we walked to 888 plaza cause she felt like eating steak at TenderBest. But the latter plan was aborted since we were quite full and since both our mums wanted us to get home early. We ended up seating at a particular park and had some chat and chat and chat!!! After that we headed home and Siti, I ended up walking home from 888 plaza.

It was a good long walk for me. I pondered over some stuff while walking and it helps me to straighten out my thoughts over some things.

All I can say now is...I can get over you getting over me! No more hoping for miracles from you because its hopeless!! buang current tau tak!!

makcik su's testimonial

2007-01-04T19:15:00.000+08:00

To My Makcik Su Dearest!
Thanx for the testimonial...
I felt so touched until it made me teared for a moment!
I'm so glad and grateful that you are my friend and my fav makcik!
I LOVE U MAKCIK SU!! MUACKZ many many!!

P.S. I will make mself free on the 20th...heheh!! I wonder what's in for me....hahah!!

happy new year!

2007-01-01T01:06:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007 TO ALL!!!

Celebrated new year by staying at home with the family and just watch tv. Saw the fireworks on tv...thought it was okay lah...could have been better though. Luckily I didn't go to Esplanade which was my initial idea, it was pretty packed with people eventhough its raining. Staying at home was kinda fun too 'cause there was many programmes showing on the tv with the luxury of my laptop, pillow and food....hehehe!!

Arghh...!! This will mean I'm getting a year older....I'm so not my age and there are some people who don't take me seriously. I still have people thinking that I'm a secondary school student when I meet them...worst still, a primary school kid...wahahhah!! Am I that small?? Maybe due to my small size they think I'm younger that I actually am....but nevermind, its a plus sign to stay young...hehhe!! My family beside my dad is of small-sized body so that explains me. In fact, I'm taller than my aunties. But my younger bro & sis have outgrown me and that makes people think I'm the younger one between my siblings....wahahha!! How cool is that??

My resolution for this year?? Don't really have one but there is one particular wish which I really wish badly is to get a job soon!!!! I'm rotting already at home not that I'm 'shaking legs' at home, I do have some side income activity....but I can't always depend on my parents for financial support..."where to put my water face??".....hahhaha!!!

abg imran's launch

2006-12-31T12:26:00.000+08:00

First and foremost,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA TO ALL MUSLIMS!

Yesterday me, sis and my cousin, Ain went to the launch of Imran Ajmain's album, 'Dengan Secara Kebetulan' at The Glass Hall, Singapore Art Museum. Initially it was just the 3 of us but my mum decided to join us after the event to meet the man himself...hahaha!! It was indeed a great and happening event. I didn't know an album launch could be fun. And that FreakyZ guy is so kelakar. We really enjoyed ourselves especially my sis and Ain. Why?? Because they had fun taking pictures with the artistes that were there....HAHAHA!! Chey!! Nevermind, I happy enough I got my cd autographed...hehhe!

I tell you...you gotta(must!) get his album. All the songs are so nice!! I can't even say which particular song is my fav because almost all are my fav...hehehhe!! Its really worth it!! Its available at HMV Heeren and Muzika Records.

Just got back from performing AIDILADHA prayer and now waiting to have lunch before going to my grandparents's house and my mak long's house later. My mum cooked nasi briyani today...woooHooo!! And I didn't sleep a wink since I got back yesterday. Stayed up all night to help her cook. And only get to sleep in the car just now....waduh2!! Imagine how sleepy I am!! But nevermind, it was worth the sacrifice. Moreover I can sleep as long as I want during the holidays....hahahah!!

what my birthdate means

2006-12-24T21:12:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: January 18

For you, love is a feeling that lingers for really long time - even after a relationship is totally over.
In fact, you still make have strong feelings for the first person you fell in love with.
You usually are reluctant to end relationships. And sometimes you're the last to know that things are ending!

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 4

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1

You are most compatible with people born on the 9th, 18th, and 27th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

Why...so true!

Taufik Batisah's autograph session

2006-12-23T12:41:00.000+08:00

Today went to see Taufik Batisah at his autograph session at Sun Plaza with my sis. We arrived quite late than planned and there was quite a crowd around the stage so we had to squeeze ourselves to get a good view...hahah!! After searching high and low, calling Hani twice or was it thrice, we finally met up with Hani & Naha....hehehhe!! And so we join the queue to get his autograph on the CD sleeve and to take picture with him. I took pictures for them and Hani, I'm so sorry the camera died....felt kinda guilty, should have use Naha's cam instead. But he'll be at Causeway Point next Jan right?? You can still take pictures with him...hehee! I never dream to meet him in person. To see him upclose is surreal but to hear from my sis what he said to her is much more surreal...kembang adikku, hahahah!!!

After that decided to go to Orchard. Walked around for awhile then had dinner before we headed for home. But made a short stop at Causeway Point upon my sis's request. I was kinda tired already but she really wanted to go so I gave in to her if not she'll be very grouchy....hehee!

P.S. Hani, we shall support each other and go through this 'bump' together, k.

why do i love u???

2006-12-22T01:58:00.000+08:00

Suddenly ~~she's~~ he's leaving
Suddenly the promise of love has gone
Suddenly breathing seems so hard to do

Carefully you planned it
I got to know just a minute too late oh girl
Now I understand it
All the times we, made love together
Baby you were thinking of him

Why do I love you?
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do?
Like I always do
You should have told me
Why did you have to be untrue... ?
(Love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do?

Ain't gonna show no weakness
I'm gonna smile and tell the whole world I'm fine
I'm gonna keep my senses
But deep down where no one can hear me
Baby I'll be crying for you

Why do I love you?
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do?
Like I always do
You should have told me
Why did you have to be untrue... ?
(Love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do?

Can't go back
Can't erase
Baby your smiling face
Oh no, I can't think of nothing else
but you (else but you) suddenly

Why do I love you?
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do?
Like I always do
You should have told me
Why did you have to be untrue... ?
(Love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do?

Why do I love you?
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do?
Like I always do
You should have told me
Why did you have to be untrue.... ?
(Love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do?

round up entry

2006-12-19T00:51:00.000+08:00

Ooh la la....I luurrveee rainy season cause I get to sleep in most of the times and cover myself up in my fav blanket and teddy....hehehe!

This entry gonna cover the events in the past week since I wasn't feeling too well the last few days...

On Tuesday met up with Siti to pass her the cheesecakes. Then met with him, had late lunch and then talk things out and decided on being just friends...for now? forever? Its just complicated at times but its just so weird at the same time too. Why I say so because we just understand each other in some unexplainable ways. Maybe cause we've been friends for quite long now and the feeling of understanding is there although he can be too weird to make sense at times(kidding!)...heheh!

Then on Wednesday, met up with Suhailah and we went to Bugis. She accompanied me for a little shopping for Saturday's event. I must say we were freaking blur and self-confessed 'stupid' because for a moment there we were clueless as to where to go first to start our search. Although in our mind we already know where to go but seems like the brain wasn't functioning well that day. Its not that I regret with what I have got myself but we could have gone to the place we had in mind to widen the varieties...haizz...
We were like "scolding" ourselves under our breath...hahahh! Well, lesson learnt right makcik??? Hahah! And oh makcik, thanks for Starbucks....I like...! And and...we met Putri!!! The last time I saw was during the poly days...soo long kan..

Welcome to the Sotongz Club Makcik Su!! hehehhe! Hani, we have another member tau...lolx!

the pair of sotongz for the day

On Thursday....Went to Causeway Point with my dad & sis, with the intention to buy a new phone for my bro's at Singtel but the QUEUE was so so LOOONG and the waiting time is freaking up to 2 hours!!! I think its all due to the promotion they are having now...Its kind of a good deal anyway...who don't want right??? After one hour waiting, we had to cancel it cause we had to run errands for my mum. But bro still got his N70 going at $99 @ Parkway Parade the next day, cause apparently it was sold out at Causeway Point...hahaha!

Btw, the communication between me & my mum were better than the last few days because we didn't really talk after she got mad at me for no reason and started scolding me like what. She's angry with me just cause I have my personal problems? and that I would like to be alone? All I needed to hear was some comforting words from her but I guess not...So I chose to just stay quiet because if I were to talk back at her she would say I'm a disrespectful daughter. I know I have the right in expressing to her what and how I feel but she might think otherwise. I believe in keeping quiet till both of us cool down because the both of us can be quite hot-tempered and stubborn at times. That's very dangerous hor....

On Saturday had my Ancien Reunion with my poly mates in RP. It was a great reunion for me cause I get to meet my beloved poly friends although those I expected to see/meet didn't turn up. Its been months since everybody saw each other so you can expect the changes we see in each other. And the food was okay, the company was great too but it could have been better...Btw, makcik Su thanks for fetching and sending me & Ros home...And thanks pakcik Is for being our 'photographer' that night...hehe! Hope you didn't mind eh...(still waiting for my pics from ros)

Then on Sunday, went to my relative's wedding and guess who I meet??? Its my cousin Feera!!! She's back in town for a holiday. Gosh I miss her lots and we had alot to talk about. When I say alot, it means everything under the sun stuffs. It's been a year since she migrated to the down under Australia...how time flies. Hopefully I get to go to the chalet and Feera, no sleeping eh?? Heheheh!

That's a wrap people!!! Looking forward for this weekend and next week. I'll post about it....

miss him

2006-12-15T17:28:00.000+08:00

i miss him

haizz...

too sick...

2006-12-13T23:40:00.000+08:00

I'm too SICK to blog today...shall do it tomorrow that is if I'm feeling better by then. But all I shall say now is that I'm feeling better emotionally and mentally...how about physically some of you might ask...like duhz, I'm SICK lah....hahah!!!

pictures time...

2006-12-11T01:09:00.000+08:00

Let the pictures to the talking:

feeling better...

2006-12-09T18:33:00.000+08:00

Rainy day, romantic love songs playing on the radio and pillows, what more can I ask for on a saturday afternoon.

I'm feeling abit better today compared to the last few days. The last few days were kinda hard, crying like a silly girl when I think about it. But after exchanging some msgs with him over some curiosity yesterday, it kinda made me feel better. I'm sorry for the "so out of line" assumptions I said about you that you're not. I'm stepping back to give you space but I'll never stop being concern for you. And Hani, you're right about me not walking away empty-handed...I'm so so glad that I still have his friendship.

Treat every relationship as if it's the last one, then you'll know how to give. Treat every moment as if it's the last day, then you'll know how to treasure.
Treasure what you have right now, or else you will regret one day.

Last Thursday met up with Hani. Got our free coffee from Starbucks at Raffles City. As quoted from Hani's blog, "What better way to cure a broken heart than having a free cup of coffee from Starbucks." Yesh, I agree Hani...hehe! Especially its the day when two sotongs meet up...blur moments bound to happen. Plus, both were pretty selenge too...hahhah! As we've said together at the same time, still have time to "snap-twist-lock in my pocket", "Once a selenge will always be a selenge"! Being us sotongs, we apparently got ourselves lost even before we meet. "Giordano eh Hani...", to those wondering....."tau takpe"....hahahha!!! Not always you get to see the sotongs blur moments...its exclusive right Hani?...wahaha!

Made our way to Marina Square. It was strangely quiet there and seriously not many people were walking around. It was when Hani said, "sume pergi Vivocity lah"...then I remembered saying, "a'ah eh"....the new shopping destination....hahah! Walked around and window-shopped looking at shoes, bags and clothes. I love this festive season's shoes collection. Hani was so frustrated because there was nothing for her to buy...hahah! Its ok Hani...next time yah! And oh yes, the FILA bag is soooo niceeee....hehhe! You-know-I-know eh Hani. The maternity tops that we saw is pretty and cute too...we get excited looking at them...wahaha! (note to Hani: boyfriend takde nak berangan maternity dress eh kita...lol!) We also took alot of pictures of us...even in the toilet, since it was pretty empty...why not have it to ourselves, right Hani??(Pictures are still pending from Hani.) Wait till I get myself a new camera phone(when will that be Ana??), I will join you camwhoring...hahaha! Then ended our day by sitting at Esplanade and did more of the heartfelt talks before we headed home. Sorry eh Hani if you got home late..heheh!

Thanks Hani for the company, needed it so much and the coffee is heavenly...and thanks for being there. I appreciate it alot! I luv u Hani! *huggies* for u too. And thanks for the Famous Amos cookies too although you were kinda tricked...hahha! I wanna go back for the shoes you said its so me...but don't know when. Anyways, I had a great time too Hani! And I remembered another "snap-twist-lock" moment about the fact that I can't.....don't pretend to know to those who don't...*bluek*

P.S. Thanks to my friends for being there for me. I love you all muchness!!! *huggies*

To you, don't worry about me okay, I'll be fine though its hard now but time do heal a brokenhearted right?

Everything happens for a reason! Nothing happens by
chance or by means of good luck. Illness, injury,
love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all
occur to test the limits of your soul.
Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved,
straight, flat road to nowhere, safe and comfortable but dull and
utterly pointless.

over its over

2006-12-07T01:12:00.000+08:00

As much I wouldn't want it to happen but it did. I just knew its gonna happen. I just had the feeling. And although I keep telling and assuring myself that I'm just over-reacting, I need to accept the reality now. I just wanna thank you for everything. I had a wonderful time all this while being with you. Though its just a short while, it really meant everything to me. It taught me alot about trust and communication in a relationship. You showed a new meaning of love to me. I know and understand that you need to work things out by yourself. I accept that and I'm letting you go now though it hurts so so much. I know its for the better. If you love someone, let him go. If its meant to be, he'll come back. If its not, just wish him all the best! I know you are hurting inside too. I guess you have a point when you said its better now than later in the relationship because it might hurt us even more. I'm just thankful and grateful that we still have our friendship...that is if you still want to. If we're meant to be together again, we will.

I'm sorry if I've said hurtful things to you just now but I couldn't help it and I was just expressing how I feel deep inside. And I feel your sincerity but both of us are hurting inside now. Let time heal our wounds. As much as I want to be angry with you I just can't because I just love you so much to be angry at you. I'm heartbroken now but I will be fine, you don't have to worry about me. You go and do your self-reflection and hopefully things turn out well for you. No matter what I'm still here for you when you need me. I think I better stop now before I start flooding my laptop. I'm somewhat hurt when I think about it.....all this while???

Airmata tidak dapat mengubati luka dihati kecuali ketaqwaan
kpd TUHAN dapat mencari ketenangan.

When two friends fall in love they learn
they are meant for each other.
When they fall out of love they realised
they want to keep each other forever.
They R not only UR lover, but also Ur best friend.

P.S. Thanx Hani, Siti and Feera for the comforting words. Thanx for being there for me! And Hani, that little note really made me feel better after reading it. Thanx alot Hani!

Siti shopping sakan...

2006-12-02T22:24:00.000+08:00

Today met up with Siti to give her the cheesecakes. Had a lot of catching up about our lives...right Siti??? Hehehee!!! We had an early dinner and then we went shopping but again it wasn't me, it was Siti who shopping sakan today......wahahaha!! Knowing her so so well....she really shopped today....hahahhah!!! Its ok pampering yourself once in awhile gerl. Siti, I feel like buying the dress too ah...heheheh! Enjoy the cakes k gerl...and also the stuff that you bought! Hope to meet you soon my friend and go to Bugis k! This time hopefully I'll be the one shopping....lolx! Luv ya Siti!!! Muacks!

christmas gift

2006-11-30T22:54:00.000+08:00

Had to cancel my lunch date with Shakhira coz my cuzzies came to my house today. Next week ah Shak..k! They brought home lots of clothes and shoes...hahhaa! See the clothes outfit me & sis already so my mum decided to give them to my cuzzies.

Earlier today, I went to run errands for my bro then went shopping by myself....hehe! Just feel like being by myself today so I went for a small retail therapy. I went shopping for shoes. I love it when the christmas season's here because there are alot of shoes..beautiful shoes...And when I came home, my mum was like "shoes again???"...hahahhaa! At least it helps to cheer me up, mum.

usah biarku bersendirian

my bf b'dae

2006-11-26T22:38:00.000+08:00

This entry is really due a week ago but
nevertheless I'll still write about it...

Last Sunday went out with Ros, Hani and my dear...You can say its a reunion for us because its been awhile since I last met them. And its the first I meet my dear not only just as friend but as a couple now too. Its also to celebrate his 21st birthday. I planned we go for lunch, movie and dinner...But lunch was cancel cause we pretty much had lunch before we meet except me but nevermind....hehehe! I wasn't that hungry anyway.

And for the first time Ros shopped with all her heart..shopping sakan Ros...hehehe! I had to restrain myself cause I'm still unemployed for GOD knows why....We went shopping at Taka while waiting for my dear...apparently he's late...its ok dear since its your birthday kan...hahahah!

Walked for a little while more at Taka, took pictures with the BIG christmas tree and then headed to Cathay for our movie selection...hahahah! We chose to watch "Just Friends" instead of "Step Up" after much attempts thinking what to watch...hahha! It was indeed a great movie and I really enjoyed laughing my heart out....hahah! When you watch it you know its not impossible for friends to become lovers....hehheh! And Ros thanks for the movie treat....luv ya! After that, dinner at LJS(for the 1st time I couldn't finish my food), to Heeren and a long walk to PS. We also checked out the pink christmas at The Cathay upon Hani's request...hahha! I must say its lovely!

We shall do this again okay, Ros and Hani??? I really misses you girls! And I really had a great time, thanks to you girls and of course my dear!!! Although you could have gone to your friends' open house but you chose to spent time with me...it meant a lot to me dear...I love you dear!!

P.S. I hope you guys like the cheescakes...hehhe! And dear, I like the "surprise"....hhehe! For us to know and for you all to wonder....hahah!!!

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I feel sad because I can't meet my bf as when I like especially when he's having his off days. I feel so bad that sometimes I wonder what my bf thinks of me & my life. If this goes on, its so unfair to him the most. So far, he's been understanding but what if.....................

love or not love...

2006-11-17T23:31:00.000+08:00

I can't sleep thinking about this and it really upset me for having this uneasy feeling and I know I shouldn't be feeling this way instead I should just let the matter rest. It really is bugging me and I just needed to pour out my heartfelt.

I don't wish for the thing that I fear most might happen to happen...don't get it? Never mind...its for me to know anyway...I just feel like crying right now...It pains me to doubt the sincerity given...Sometimes I feel the insecurity in me that tells me that somehow I need the assurance very much so that I know where I stand. It could be because of my lack of expressions shown that fails to show my true feelings.

How I wish I could just say it here but I can't and I don't want to because maybe its just my stupid feelings and I don't want to jump into conclusion blindly...Maybe this feeling is due to the hormone changing in my body....I don't know, I just don't. I want to make it work, I really do but never I felt clueless of what I'm suppose to do.

bila kita mencintai yg lain
mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar
sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah
sayang ku akan hilang

On a side note:

Usah Lepaskan - Taufik Batisah
yg terindah terlukis di bibirmu
tak pernah ku lihat senyummu sebegitu
pudarkah sudah cinta yg kuberi
berwarna warni segala yg dijanjikan ia
usah biarku bersendirian
usah biar hatimu ditawan
usah biar diriku disini seorang menunggu tanpa teman
usah lepas genggaman tanganmu
usah biar semua berlalu
usah terlupa perasaan hati pertama kali kita bertemu
usah lepaskan..
tak mudah ku melupa segala yg berlaku
ku ingin selalu bersamamu
usah biarku bersendirian
usah biar hatimu ditawan
usah biar diriku disini seorang menunggu tanpa teman
usah lepas genggaman tanganmu
usah biar semua berlalu
usah terlupa perasaan hati pertama kali kita bertemu
ku tak peduli apa sebabnya
engkau dan dia harus bersama
mendungnya langit bila berkata
kita patutnya masih bercinta
usah lepaskan..
usah lepaskan..
yg terindah terlukis di bibirmu
tak pernah ku lihat senyummu sebegitu

P.S. such an emotional song yet so lovely that it manage to captivate me & I'm hooked onto it now...

Ruver's bdae!

2006-11-12T16:22:00.000+08:00

Yesterday evening I went to Ruver's bbq at Pasir Ris upon his invitation. Met 3 of my poly friends there. I wasn't worried about the food because he made sure he ordered halal food for his malay friends. And the cake was my fav....yummylicious.

I love you lots, dear!

so many things happen...

2006-11-08T23:37:00.000+08:00

I met Siti today & we went to Vivocity. All I can say is the place is damn big that I'm having leg cramps after all the walking. We had nasi ayam earlier for our lunch at the bus interchange. Then we walked for a while at Vivocity before sitting down and do our usual catching up with each other while drinking our coffee at Starbucks(where else??heheheh). Walked around again to explore the place. And they have Candy Empire!! So I bought my jellybeans. Bought some stuffs from The Body Shop too. The place is nice but I'm tired now.....hahahha!!!

My stomach is not feeling too good the past 2 days. I have no idea why....whether its the food I ate or I'm falling sick...I don't like the uneasy feeling I'm feeling right now.

So many things have happen recently. And the special one is having someone to LOVE and be loved. It feels like everything falls into place...just nice. And I'm still having the butterflies....hehheh! Like I always say: let LOVE lead the way. Don't find love because it won't be there, LOVE will find you. Always expect the unexpected.

Ros's bday!!

2006-11-01T04:28:00.000+08:00

First & foremost I would like to wish Ros, Happy Belated 21st Birthday!!! Sorry for the late wish. Haven't met her for awhile now since our grad, miss her lots!

Had supper just now at Al-Azhar @ Bukit Timah with my family. I'm soo full that I can't go to sleep now...

Last weekends were the busiest for my family. Like I said in my previous entry, we had alot of people coming to our house. I think ah my house were the kecohrable with all the small kids running up & down the stairs....All the kids will never fail to sit or play at the stairs. We cooked spaghetti & lontong and also longan drink for the guests. Everybody was talking, laughing and I still get duit raya from my close relatives...ehehhehe!

Last Monday went out with my sis. Paid for my bro season's parking coupon then his bills too. After that we went to Causeway Point to jalan-jalan. Bought ourselves a blouse, watches and we went window shopping for shoes and perfumes. My sis was the happiest person that day. Hahhahah! Why? Cause she have me to treat her...wahaha!

I think I better sleep now or I can't wake up tomorrow....

first day raya

2006-10-26T08:13:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to All!!!
Its the third day & I'm going to the airport later with my mum to welcome my aunt home from her pilgrimage.

Well, the first day raya was great although only visited about 5 house. We started late so only get to visit a few houses but then to think of it no matter how late or early we start the day, it'll still a few houses too. We don't always visit many houses on the first day raya. We went to my paternal grandparents' house in Eunos(brings memories whenever I go there coz I used to live there too), then to Bedok Reservoir to one of my Mak Long's house and later, took a break while sending my bro off to camp. And in between my mum received a call from one of my uncle and the news made me abit, I don't know how to explain but weirdly somehow it made my day and even put a smile on my face. Anywaya, usually we would go to Boon Lay to meet my grnadfather but since he now stays with my uncle, we went to my uncle house in Marine Parade or was it Marine Crescent....hahaha! Then to another house in the same area and to another house in Bedok. Its not my relatives house but its my parents friend's house. Actually we didn't plan to go to their house on the first day but since we were going to send the cookies they ordered might as well go to their house also. At the end of the day, we reached home around 1 plus. Quite tiring ah. I remembered telling myself when I saw the clock strike 12, I don't know why my eyes was abit sleepy when on normal days I can stand till like 3am in the morning...hahahah!! Maybe due to my buziness during the raya preparation and a few sleepless nights. All in all, first day Hari Raya is a great one.

For yesterday, usually second day raya my house would get many visitors but I think since its still the examination week, many will come during the weekends and I anticipate alot.

On the "bad" side note:
No pictures taken coz camera spoiled and yet to repair..haizz....boringggg!!! My initial "GREEN" family outfit is such a disappointment!!! The tailor didn't even take the initiative to inform us that she couldn't sew our clothes. Like what sey...! I was so bingit and whatsmore my mum!!! Luckily we have others outfits sey. Aiyoyo auntie!!! No more a next time. Sorry but sorry!

hari raya preparation

2006-10-20T00:37:00.000+08:00

Finally I can sit and update on what has been happening around. Had wanted to update ealier but am too tired to even think what to write....hahahh! I've been so busy preparing for the coming Hari Raya. What with helping my mum with her sewing demands and my own cookies order demands. Seriously...I never knew that there are alot of things to be done. In the past,usually my mum would always be the one who takes care of everything and for all I know, when Hari Raya comes I enjoy myself without knowing and realising the hardwork my mum has to do. Now things have change, I try my hand in handling most of the work. Now then I know how physically and mentally drained for my mum especially with us, the mischievous trio - me, my bro & sis. Heheheh! Love u Ibu!

For the first time in my life I feel like a real grown up. I'm starting and learning to take charge of things at home. What to do...I'm the eldest. So sooner of later I still have to do it! Better now right? Since my bro is already in NS and my sis is still schooling and I can't depend on my parents always, so left me hanging in the house....hahah! But the good thing is I get to have things done my way, not all lah...but most of it..Okay lah tu kan!! I get to choose this year's colour for the whole family's first day outfit. It'll be GREEN! Believe it or not, I bought a matching handbag and thought of buying a pair of green shoes too but yet to find the suitable one. Why green you people might ask?? I just feel like it...hahahahh!!! My family easily agreed...makes my job easier...luckily we're not fussy people...anything goes as long as its comfortable. Eh, maybe I should change my blog layout to green too?? What do you think people??

I'm having sleepless nites these few days just to make sure I'm on track with all the order demands. Yeah, its tiring but at the same time I know it'll be worthwhile.

And I've been going to and fro Arab Street at least twice or thrice the past few weeks to buy cloth materials for my mum. Its the first time I go there that many times in a month. I think ah the people at the shop recognise me well already...hahah! So can get discount ah uncle??? Heheheh! And oh!! I got to eat dendeng after soo long, not always I get to eat that coz of health stuff but once in a while doesn't hurt kan....yummylicious!

Yeah....tomorrow my bro's booking out!!! Poor him down with fever, plus that he used to have a mild asthma and very sensitive to dust especially with the haze now. And he had to go without fasting for 2 days...kesian adikku. That's all for now!

Wow, what an update right??? Hehhehe!

breaking someone's heart

2006-10-19T00:33:00.000+08:00

It's no fun breaking someone's heart. NOT AT ALL!!!

ulcers

2006-10-09T02:19:00.000+08:00

The weather's been pretty warm nowadays eh? Even the fan which is on full-blast feels airless. And I have 3 ulcers in my mouth alone...omigosh, 3 ulcers??? This might due to the heat lah. Aiyoyo...how like that ah? Hahaha...

2 more weeks and it'll be Hari Raya...how fast time flies...My kitchen gonna start giving off some aromatic smell of the cookies and cakes starting tomorrow...yummylicious!! Since this year my mum is totally concentrating on her sewing, she gave the responsibility of baking to me. Its not that heavy lah since I have been helping her all this while. I have a few orders to fulfill and hopefully by end of this week, I'm able to finish them. And I'm still craving for my dendeng!!! And the radio's playing the songs already!!

off for 2 weeks

2006-10-07T16:44:00.000+08:00

Sent my bro off to Tekong yesterday. Everything seems cool in the beginning, until the moment we had to say our goodbyes....Sad you know but all including my parents, sis & I tahan ourselves. The house is quiet without him around lah.

Well....we'll see him in two weeks time just before Hari Raya but he have to book in the night of first day Raya....booHooHoo!!! Its ok, he gotta do what he gotta do! Hehehhe! And oh..one of the Anugerah boys is there too....can ask my bro to help get his autograph!! HAhaha! Kidding2!!

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

2006-10-05T01:22:00.000+08:00

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion:

You have medium extroversion.
You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.
Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.
But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time."

Conscientiousness:

You have high conscientiousness.
Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.
Most things in your life are organized and planned well.
But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.

Agreeableness:

You have high agreeableness.
You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.
Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.
You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance.

Neuroticism:

You have medium neuroticism.
You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic.
Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy.
Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is medium.
You are generally broad minded when it come to new things.
But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it.
You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

The Five Factor Personality Test

bro NS

2006-10-04T23:33:00.000+08:00

Ooooo....my bro going for his NS this friday. Mcm cepat gitu adikku dah nak pegi ns, rasanye mcm baru smlm dier abis sec sch....hahaha. No kidding, time really flies...I'm gonna miss having him around at home. Aiyoyo, dah dier kene buka & sahur kat camp. It'll be a new experience for him, hopefully he'll adapt comfortably.

And oh...this never happened before to me. I don't know who, prolly some misbehaved kids took my shoes from outside my house..I'm not sure if they were trying to steal it or what cause my bro found it at the staircase on the 3rd floor. Hmm...at first I was frustrated, who wouldn't right??? But then, I calmed down cause its not worth it to be angry. I told my mum about it this evening and she said,"sapelah kurang ajar buat tu semua".Hahahha! My mum's very particular about this, not the shoes missing but especially the insolent behaviour. I told her never mind lah...life is a cycle. I can't be bothered to be angry nor curse those people....'do unto others and others will do unto you'. We'll see if it happens again tonight...

Haizz...the haze is back and forecast says that its here to stay for 1 to 2 days. Urghh...I dislike the haze cause it made my head spin yesterday as the smell was too strong for me. Hopefully it goes away soon as its not good for one's health too.

I lie awake and pray
That you will look my way

mish u "R"

2006-10-02T03:39:00.000+08:00

Its not until you've lost someone then you realise how much you love him and how much you've miss him. How much you've miss the late night talks, the SMSs, the events where both of you get to see each other and the places you go to reminds you of him.

Never fails to think of him now and then. Sometimes thinking back of the days when we're together really brings back the sweet memories we shared. I remembered dedicating a song for you in the radio. Well, its just the things you do when you're in love...haizzzz. Although it doesn't last as long as I could have wanted it to be, it was long enough to teach me to appreciate someone more and never take advantage of their love. There are times when my wishful thinking that you'll come back to me. Really miss him. Miss seeing him at places. Especially now in the fasting month. Always pray for his happiness and well-being.

Hady won S'pore Idol!!!

2006-09-26T02:41:00.000+08:00

WooooHooo! Hady is the winner!!! My sis & I was freaking excited we screamed!! Goodness!! Macam orang giler!!! We voted umpteen times for him, especially my sis!! dasyat2! Now she have to wait for the bills to come & get the "scolding" from my dad....lolx!! But anyways, I wasn't surprise when the results were announced cause I had the feeling he'll win & he DID! Even if Jon had won also, I wouldn't be surprise, in fact I don't mind cause both are good singers! The climax that made me knew Hady is gonna win was when he sang 'You give me wings'. I felt it man...really felt the inspiration. I'm not kidding. Okay okay, I'd better stop here or I will go on and on and on......hahahahha!

On another happier note, looks like I get to fast for the whole full month(hopefully!), though didn't get to do the terawih. Isn't it a miracle?? I was soo happy. Kita merancang, Tuhan yang menentukan.

Updates of what have been happening the past week....since I've been pretty occupied and no time to blog, I'm gonna chunk it all here:

Last week Sunday, met up with my dear Hani(really miss you tau!! terubat rindu dikalbu). I brought her to the Manja show and guess what, she was really excited to be there. What not, she finally got her picture taken with Khairil Yusof - she's been wanting to meet him....and to add to her already 'happy giler' mood, we watched her crush in poly performed with his own band, Merah. So proud of him. Wishing him success!! And when he waved at her, she 'beat' me!!! lolx!!

Then we had to make a move cause it started to rain, so couldn't stay long enough to see the others. So we went to catch the indonesian movie, HEART. It's a movie that made me cry for the first time watching in the cinema. The movie is really both heart-warming and heart-wrenching and anything related to heart...It has love, friendship, appreciation, sacrifices, acceptance and being truthful to oneself. For me personally, watching it felt like it was more than deja vu to me, I must say. I like the storyline...really beautiful. I still can't believe I cried....macam ni u nak ajak tengok crite hindustan, hani?? habislah, banjir...lolx

After that, we did alot of catching up over Starbucks at The Cathay!!!! Finally, I get my frappucino and Hani, we sure did miss each other alot right?? Hani, I had fun walking in the rain with you!!! Hehehehe! Thanx for the great day, dear Hani!!!

And yesh!! How can I forget about Rentak Singapura??!! It was quite an experience since I've never been to a concert before. It was really worth my 15 bucks for that concert plus I get to take pictures with the artistes. What more can I ask for?? I had fun with sis, bro & his gf, thanks guys!! Hopefully, you guys enjoyed yourselves. And thanks to my parents for allowing me to go...luv ya lots!!

P.S. been having a pretty good feeling in me, hopefully it'll lasts.

Ramadan

2006-09-21T23:55:00.000+08:00

Looks like I'm gonna miss a few days of fasting and the 'terawih' prayers too this sat since "mother nature" decides to give me a visit yesterday...waduh2!

Thought I could do my fast the whole month of Ramadan like the past few years...chet!! Hehhehe!

Anyways, I'm really looking forward to this year's Ramadan unlike the past year. Maybe cause many things have been happening and I have decided to find solace deep in me and ponder about everything and bring myself together again.

Sometimes, I feel that I'm falling apart and at times, I tend to forget HIM and thus the feeling. For this Ramadan, I'm gonna have myself closer to Allah and improve myself to be a better muslim, a good daughter to my parents and a sister to my siblings. InsyaAllah.

Selamat Berpuasa kepada semua muslimin dan muslimat. Semoga ibadah puasa kita akan diberkati Allah. Amin.

Suri - tom cruise & katie holmes

2006-09-08T13:57:00.000+08:00

She is so beautiful!!! The moment I saw her pictures, my heart melt. No wonder parents, Tom Cruise & Katie Holmes didn't want to introduce her to the public earlier....hahaha! I can't stop looking at her picture....she is a beautiful baby.

I like this picture the most:

wat goes around comes around

2006-09-01T18:48:00.000+08:00

Please don't fight. I can't bear to see it anymore. What's over and done with, its over and can't be undone. All we can do now is learn from the things that happen and improve ourselves. Stop using all the harsh words and speak nicely to each other. Pretty pleaseeeeeeee......................

All I can say is, WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND.

Siti's Wedding

2006-08-28T23:48:00.000+08:00

Did anyone watch TV3 just now??? I'm really amazed with Siti and Datuk K's wedding reception tonight. Its sooo BEAUTIFUL. And she is so PRETTY. Siti and Datuk K looked really sweet together. I know I never imagine I would say all this. But who cares,(wth) I'm soo HAPPY for her. Her so-called 'Cinderella' gown is soo sweet and lovely, with all the PINK and off-white colours. The decoration is so majestically gorgeous, stunning and sweetness. When I saw it earlier in the morning at TV3 during the final preparations, it really took my breath away. The garden concept is very nice, what's more they have the fresh flowers and ROSES!!! And oh, I thought she gonna wear 'tudung' like she did on her engagement and wedding solemnization day. Oh well, its her wedding and I'm sure she knows what she's doing. And her surprise song she performed titled 'Cahaya Cinta' is so meaningful and she composed that after her wedding last Monday(if im not wrong ah). If its true, its like wow!! She's one special person as a singer and also as a human being.

Omigosh....I still can't stop being totally gaga about her wedding. Though I'm not much of her No.1 fan, I hope that everyone will support Siti Nurhaliza and always pray for her well being in her marriage with her beloved husband, Datuk Khalid.

Semoga Siti Nurhaliza & Datuk Khalid akan berbahagia selalu menempuhi alam rumahtangga dengan setenang-tenangnya. Semoga kekal bahagia hingga ke anak cucu dan juga hingga ke akhir hayat. AMIN.

rentak s'pura

2006-08-24T23:38:00.000+08:00

Anybody wants to accompany me to Rentak Singapura??? I wanna go but whos interested to go also???? Aside from Imran Ajmain, there'll be 2D(1-night appearance only after so long), Hazrul Nizam!!, Eka Mairina and others local artists like Rahimah Rahim and Ismail Haron.

See now I forgot what to blog coz I was too immersed in the above....hehe! Anyways, Nurul don't deserve to go out today but oh well, its the Singaporeans vote...no matter what, HADY still in!!! When he sang Lagenda, I was 'melting'.....hahaha!

Oh....now I remember what I had wanted to blog about...
Its about my freaking mood swings....you see I've been very grouchy, moody and finding faults with people especially with my mum since she's been practically the only person I sees and stays at home with all the time. I don't feel good after all the stupid things I happened to do or says. I mean while doing what I did and saying what I said, the only thing that came to my mind was to express my feelings that I think I have kept deep inside me. I'm easily irritated and I was extra-sensitive during that period. I tears easily too. Even listening to a song or even eatching romantic-touching stories on TV. I just don't understand what is wrong with me. If I want to blame on PMS, its not. Maybe I was undergoing a change in my body or its just the phase in my life that I have to go through. It happens almost all the time and though I know my mum was just teasing or joking with me, I just can't and don't like the sound of it. Haiz...they JUST don't understand sometimes.

I can feel it that I've change both physically and mentally. I can only hope and pray that its a good change and its for the good of it all. I think ah I'm deprived of a boyfriend love....lol! OMG, I didn't just say that!!! You know, 'You can't love somebody till you love yourself!'

All I can say I've changed...Whether its for the better or worse....just wait & see. But I feel better with myself now. I just needed to talk to somebody and thanx to 'YOU' for listening to me. I felt 'lighter' after expressing my surpressed feelings. And thanx for understanding! I appreciate it sooo much!

And oh...yesterday while I was running some errands for my mum, I bought a Mocha-Ice blended from Coffee Bean. I just couldn't resist and had to satisfy my caffeine temptation...lolx! If what I read about is true, too bad lah my favourite cafe...

siti's bdae!

2006-08-19T23:57:00.000+08:00

Today went out with Siti and my sis wanted to tag along, so I agreed to bring her too, nanti merajuk lakz....heheheh! She sure have enjoyed the outing coz since they've known each other, they don't have problem communicating! I'm not the least worried they won't get along. :)

The outing was supposedly to celebrate Siti's 21st birthday. We ate at the foodcentre at Habourfront interchange. Since Siti's already had lunch apparently...(I pre-emptied my stomach so that we could eat together tau Siti...hehehe!!!) Luckily you recommended us the Nasi Ayam...heheh!!! After that I planned where to meet the "surprise" for her....She was really surprised coz she really had no clue. "How can you asked what's the surprise when its meant to be a SURPRISE!!!" hahahaha! The best part was when she really believed me when I said I wanted to introduce her to my "so-called" boyfriend(padahal2)...lolx! Walked for awhile at Habourfront and talking non-stop...imagine lah we've not met for sooo long...so we catch up on our lives. Too bad lah she needs to go home early to go to her aunt's open house. Sob...sob, I had wanted to spent the day with you on your birthday. Next time ok gerl! But anyways Siti, I hope you've enjoyed the get-together and my little little surprise for you.

Then..me, sis and Shakhira decided to have our dinner at Ramen Ten at Jubilee,AMK. Finally I get to eat there coz I've been wanting to go there to eat....For a start, its nice and maybe I'll make a retun there. After that decided to make our way home since Shakhira is also looked tired after her day at Sentosa....

Shakhira, thanx for being my little little surprise....I'm glad to see both of you.... :) And sis, thanx for tagging along...you know I know ah... ;>

Once again Siti, HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY! May you lead a happy life always with your loved ones! AND, takmo noti2 tau....dah tua.(FYI, I'm just quoting your darling "sms".)

cry

2006-08-18T00:49:00.000+08:00

I've noticed that recently, I teared easily whenever I watched drama serials that features love, sad, couples and whenver I hear or listen to love songs by coincidence or not. I just couldn't control my feelings and willingly let the tears flows...I wasn't sure what I was crying about. I mean yeah, coz I was watching a sad movie or a romantic drama. But deeply I know there was definitely a reason why I cried and that crying wasn't simply just tears flowing down like waterfall making my cheeks all wet, I felt like the tears was letting me, in a way, to help vent out all the feelings, all the emotional state that I have kept long enough in my heart. The tears just kept flowing while all I could do was reminiscing about my life...

Although I'm pretty sure that there is one particular reason for the tears, I couldn't help thinking and asking myself why?? WHY am I crying about that reason?? I shouldn't be crying for the fact that I'm trying hard to forget about that reason. I'm letting go of that reason slowly. But the more I tried, the more the reason I cried. I tried to deny myself but I know its of no use. Still, this can't go on all the time...I can't be crying just because I think of that reason or when that reason crosses my mind when I don't even think about it. It's not easy for the fact apparently.

That is why I won't stop myself from crying or when the tears decides to flow like waterfall. I should just stop and listen to my tears coz tears are all I've got. Crying does help you know, it helps to let go of all the emotions inside and we'll feel better after that. Don't be shy to cry and its not a weakness to cry though people will notice. They don't understand coz they don't feel what you feel...ignore them. Its shameful to cry?? But if you're crying for the right reason, you shouldn't be.

Someday I Will Understand...Biar waktu mengubat rindu, tiada ku mencari sebarang penawar pilu...

batam trip

2006-08-13T14:18:00.000+08:00

Yah yah, I know this post is way due.....4 days ago

I had wanted to blog earlier but I was still recovering from my seasickness.....as some of you know I went for a 2D1N Batam trip during the National Day holidays. It was an awesome experience going to Batam as it was my first time there. We stayed at the Batam View Beach Resort...I must say this - it was one of the great resort I've ever went to....I thought it gonna be like the normal 'kampung-like' resort but I was wrong. It is more like a hotel-like resort...it is beautiful. It took my breath away the moment I stepped into the room...fuyooooh!!! I don't mind going there again....hehehe!!!

The trip was a good way for all the TMF family to get together and get to know each other. The games organized was a great one. And and!! There is a swing!! Hehehe!! I was so excited cause there is no more swing in Singapore if you noticed...It was like back to the memory lane during my childhood days. The view is very nice, there's a lagoon, jacuzzi and swimming pool.I had wanted to get into the water but I refrained myself from getting wet. WHY?? I had my reasons....lolx!!! Blah...

Then we also visited a mosque, Masjid Al-Muttaqin. The mosque's structure is very old and needs donation. It will also be Ust Fouzy small company in Batam. Some weird funny feeling formed in my heart when I saw the kids...I just can't explain why ah..but I know it was a good feeling.. :)

I can't believe I'm saying this but I wish we could have stayed longer there....hahaha! I missed it now and everybody. :)

Aside from that...

I went to watch the fireworks yesterday. It was so so BEAUTIFUL. The team from France really did a good job. I was watching it awed...hahhaa! And I made two new friends....I loike!! :) I had a great time yesternite. Know why??Cause........I was with great bunch of people...

batam

2006-08-07T22:51:00.000+08:00

I'm going Batam tomorrow!!!

Though I'm not excited but at the same time excited to go for a holiday. I promise to enjoy myself there....seriously!! :)

HAPPY 41st BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!

have u ever?

2006-08-03T22:59:00.000+08:00

Have you ever like someone
You've known since young

After so long you've not see him
And now he appear in your life once more
You are trying to get to know as a friend
And if lucky enough to get close to him

Cause you've never talk to him before
It will be the first
And you're wondering if he ever notice you
Would he ever want the chance to get to know you

Have you ever found the one
You dreamed of all your life
You'd do just about anything
To look into their eyes

waduh2...

2006-08-03T00:36:00.000+08:00

So much to say....but where to start eh??

Waduh2....I was in the midst of writing up this post my dad switch off the broadband *scoffs* hahhaha

Went out last Sunday with my sis to Marina after D'Marquee Suhaila(thanx for accompanying me makcikz, really appreciate it). For the first time I felt like my outing with my sis is totally a sisters getaway. No disturbance from whoever...I enjoyed my outing with her nowadays coz being a teenager her age sometimes can be very difficult but I'm glad it has change. She's more outspoken with me now. I'm able to share stuffs with her like normal sisters and girls do with each other. She is slowly changing her behaviour who used to sulk if she didn't get what she wants and asked for. She could sulk very badly and its so hard to talk her round last time....but now seems easier coz she's beginning to be more understanding of what's important and what's not....

So I decided to give her a treat for that day since I haven't given one for quite sometime. Had BK for lunch, then went around Marina Square coz she wanted to surveys some bags to buy. Usually she would get easily tired(due to some physical reason), but that day she was ecstatic to walk for so long coz she said if she wants to find the things she wants to buy, she don't mind walking unless if it was me who wants to find my things....chet!! hahahha! Its ok sis, I still LOVE YOU!!! Then, we went to Candy Empire since she's never been there...hahah! She was too happy to be there and if can she wants to buy the whole shop, she even said that she don't mind sleeping in the shop...wahahahahaha! Ended up buying some chocs for my parents and bro, she wanted to buy Willy Wonka choc for her friends and I bought JELLYBEANS!! my favourite....what else....heheh!

Also bought her a storybook at TIMES since she really really asked me to buy for her...wanted to reject her but when I saw her face slowly starts to sulk...Hayioohhh....didn't have the heart to see her sulk all the way home...So I bought it. And on the way home, I told her it won't be anytime soon that I'm gonna treat you again...she gotta wait for that time of the month lah...hahah!

That aside....

Ok...I'm already unhappy that I don't get to watch the NDP @ National Stadium, instead I'll be spending my National Day eve in Batam for some family day thingy....arghhhh!! I would rather spend it in Singapore....but I don't wish to hurt my parents feelings since my dad had already booked the ticktes....plus my 'members-members' will not be there....haizzz...I know its a day to spent time with my family but for some reason, nowadays I don't feel like travelling out of Singapore and I don't know why maybe coz dunnoe eh....hahahh!

There are a couple of events that I wish I could go during the eve of National Day especially the fireworks and All Urban performances. Looks like I have to give it a miss on the eve and hopefully I reach home early the next day to catch it. And I had to turn down Hani's wanting to watch the fireworks with me....so sad can.

I'm trying to tell myself that who knows I will enjoy myself over there.....but who knows....'Life is Unpredictable' and you have to 'Expect the Unexpected'. At the same time, I'm having mixed feelings about the trip. Since I've never been to Batam, I would like to see it but sad coz I don't feel like going anywhere......arghhhh! help me! *doink*
Chill Ana, chill!

rafidz in hosp

2006-07-27T22:25:00.000+08:00

Met up with Siti & Mas ard 9.30 am. Visited Rafidz at TTSH. Luckily his tests results showed positive signs so he was discharge today. Seeing him and hearing what he had to go through..poor him. I hope he gets well soon and hopefully there's nothing serious with his health. In the midst of the painful state he is, he can still joke around with us...That boy ah never fails to make people laugh...you'll nver know what he has up his sleeves...lolx! Talked alot about the sec sch days...how time flies and causes some changes in our lives. We stayed for almost 3 hours I think....lama kan...lolx! Then Mas met up with her bf, so me & Siti decided to just hang out @ the Esplanade.

Sitting by the bay for almost 3 hours too really meant a lot to me Siti. We talked anything and everything under the sun. It was definitely one of the best conversations I ever had. For some reason, we like to talk about the sec sch days. Is that why people always says that sec sch days are the best moments in our education life?? Maybe ah...Especially coz for me & Siti, we sure did had the best time during those days. Now, we can only look back and laugh at all the silly things we did or said with each other...Sometimes I wish I can go back to the past and relive the days but that will never happen in the real world. How I wish things now are simple and less comlicated like those days, where I do not have to worry too much about life and things that are revolving in my life nowadays. Too bad it won't coz life could turn out to be a bore, wouldn't it?

Then had an early dinner at LJS before both of us have to rush to go back to the reality...no more daydreaming. I really had a blast today!! Thanks muchness frens....life is beautiful with you people...!!! I feel grateful that I'm blessed with frens like you guys....What more can I ask for???

P.S. Mas, kau tau kan aku memang suke berloyar buruk....heheh...sori eh

my first love

2006-07-27T01:23:00.000+08:00

Current song: First Love by Hikaru Utada

Current mood: Feeling emo

Suddenly had the urge of listening to the song. Reminds me of my own. I wonder how one knows that that was their first love. Which brings me back to the old but sweet memories. I remember reading this book titled also, 'My First Love', sadly I don't remember the author but I know its the Love Stories series. I can read that book repeatedly without getting bored and borrowed it from my sch library when I have the chance to cause it helps me to heal my broken heart at that moment I thought. Or maybe it does help a little. Reminiscing about the past sometimes can make me become tearful. Just thinking of the little little things, it has both the happy and sad moments.

At that moment, I thought that person was my first love cause he's the first that teaches me how to cry my heart out for him for the longest period I ever know. Being with that person really teaches me how pain one heart can be when that person wanted a break-up. And it had a deep impact on my life cause I had to face that person everyday in sch. I still remember that most of my subject grades drop drastically cause of that person as it was damn painful for me to handle. I'm so lucky to have my friends who gave me encouragement and were always there for me. I'm really grateful for having them with me. Luckily, that one day I realised what has become of me and my studies. I decided to just forget about the matter cause I didn't want to disappoint my family just because of my love matters and buck up. Maybe that's how Allah wanted things to happen.

I guess that person really taught me lessons about love I never knew and maybe that's why I consider him as my first love. That's for me. What about you people out there?? I'm sure you all have your own rendition of what your first love means to you. Well, all is up to oneself to keep and always treasure it eventhough it was a painful one. Cause it will never cross our path again and it was meant to teach us a lesson of our own and for us to learn from it so that history will not repeat itself. (Though sometimes it always do, right??)

While the song brings back the memories, the lyrics is meaningful enough for to think of ...........(to those who knows, shhhhh!)

Once in a while
You are in my mind
I think about the days that we had
And i dream that these would all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
How I want here to be with you
Once more

You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one in my life
So true, I believe i can never find
Somebody like you
my first love

Once in awhile
Your are in my dreams
I can feel the warmth of your embrace
And I pray that it will all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
And how I want here to be with you
Once more
yah yah yah

You will always be inside my heart
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Please don't say no
Now and forever you are still the one
In my heart
So true, I believe I could never find
Somebody like you
My first love
oh oh

You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one
So true, I believe I could never find
Now and forever

Pardon my emo entry today. You know sometimes you just have to let your feelings and emotion out no matter how much tears that is gonna flow down even if it flows like a waterfall. :)

And where are you now?
Now that I need you
Tears on my pillow
Wherever you go, go
I'll cry me a river
That leads to your ocean
You'll never see me fall apart
In the words of a broken heart

It's just emotions, taking me over
Caught up in sorrow, lost in the song
But if you don't come back, come home to me darling
Don't you know, there's nobody left in this world to hold me tight
(Don't you know) there's nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight

You are always gonna be my love
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
You will always be inside my heart
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one

emoticon

2006-07-26T17:35:00.000+08:00

Whatever I'm feeling right now, better not anything or anyone or anywhos ruin it....

Your Emoticon is Cool

You're not feeling particularly up or down, just relaxed and calm. You're ready for whatever is going to happen next!

What Emoticon Best Represents You Right Now?

gummy bears

2006-07-26T17:10:00.000+08:00

Weeee...I'm cute as gummy bears...lolx!!!(feeling sorang2)

Gummy Bears

You may be smooshie and taste unnatural, but you're so darn cute.

What Kind of Candy Are You?

sarcastic

2006-07-26T16:56:00.000+08:00

am I or am I not?

You Have Your Sarcastic Moments

While you're not sarcastic at all times, you definitely have a cynical edge.
In your opinion, not all people are annoying. Some are dead!
And although you do have your genuine moments, you can't help getting your zingers in.
Some people might be a little hurt by your sarcasm, but it's more likely they think you're hilarious.

How Sarcastic Are You?

down with flu

2006-07-23T23:43:00.000+08:00

Archooo! So down with slight sore-throat, flu, slight fever & head-spinning. I don't get sick often so sometimes its a joy, hehe! Kan orang kata sakit itu satu nikmat dari Allah, jadi janganlah merungut.

Still archoooing while writing this post. Nevermind nevermind, since I'm feeling down this week, hopefully I get better when the next sunday comes...*beaming smiles*! For me to know and for you to find out....kekeke! I can't wait...soo looking forward...

I had a dream about something soo funny & weird yet it sounds so real. Will it happen in reality or it will just stay as dream that is so beautiful? A dream that is able to make me feel like it was freakingly real.

Another dream is also pretty funny lah coz never thought of it. But dreams is just dreams..... Its not as real as the earlier one but.....hahaha!

Went out to have a late dinner at D'Rubiah Restaurant. Met Shakhira & family there having a late dinner too, hehe! It was a joy to have met her...mizz her lots. In fact not only her, I mizz all my frens...Especially my pri sch frens, sec sch frens, poly frens and all my other pals. We have now gone in separate directions and everybody is busy with own lives. But that doesn't hinder us to keep in contact with each other. We should hold a gathering cum reunion. So, who's gonna do the planning?? heheh! lolx! We'll see ah..when all not too busy... :)

And so my sis got a new phone, Motorola L6, which includes bluetooth. Wait till I get my dream phone Nokia 3250. Which is a long wait coz I need a job to be able to own that phone. Waduh2. I'm still wondering why she needs it when she's just in sec 2?? But oh well, I can't be bothered to explain the negatives of it since when I tried to just now, she was being like a smart aleck...so there goes my concern. Nanti kalau tak dapat ape yg dier nak, merajok pulak. Susah lak nak pujuk....so asalkan kau bahagia ah! Anyways, its a plus for me too since it can stores up too 182 pictures I think. So I'm hoping it can be of use for next sunday...woohoo! *beaming smiles*(again)

I know you wouldn't mind right sis coz I know you'll like it too. Kan kan??? :P

So till then...bye-bye! Muackz! Gotta turn in for I need to wake up bright & early. Need to start losing some weight before the festive seasons come! Woohoo!!! Au revoir!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY UNCLE & whoever celebrating their birthday today!!!
Semoga dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahkan rezeki. Berbahagia selalu disamping keluarga yang tersayang!!

P.S. stories heard, stories read but no no, no no, tell me its all wrong.

2006-07-16T23:26:00.000+08:00

Firstly, I would never thought I would blog about this...let's take a deep breath

Today was like the best day I've ever had. Like one of the phrase in the story, 'More Than Meets The Eye', "Every hour is a gift". It appears to be so so true to me when I got to meet Fauzie, Shah Iskandar, Hyrul Anuar, Effandy & Khairil Yusof at the Expo earlier today. Being someone whom has never get that upclose with celebs like them, it was a great feeling. And all thanx to my lovely mum who dared me & sis to make our moves...heheh! You can imagine the blood rushing to my head...hahahah! I lurvvee you mum!

I decided to approach Fauzie & see whether he still recognises me coz we are friends during our pri sch days. I'm so glad that he did after I told him my name...Oh well, its been a long time since we met so that explains the blurness...haha! (And his gf damn pretty lah can...heheh!)

Nevertheless, it was worth the approached. And so my sis got the chance of taking photos with Fauzie, Hyrul & Shah(a funny guy)...She was freaking happy lah...We couldn't stop talking about it even after we left the expo hall. AND, to add to the happy moment, we saw Khairil at the entrance...(padahal baru je bebual pasal dier,'kalau Khairil & Azmir ade tadi,mesti best gilernye kan'...lolx!) The funny part was, since we were still going crazy over the earlier events that took place that we didn't thought of approaching him...hahah! After a few steps ahead...we were like, "Eh, Khairil ah, nak amik gambar tak?" lolx! And we sisters giggling non-stop. Again, my mum giving us the encouragement...wahaha! When she said that if we didn't do it, we might regret it after we reach home, I went, "true ah" she said...So we brave ourselves and approach him while my parents wait for us. To me lah, he's a gentleman. :)

Already by default we are like mad people giggling & laughing & smiling, seeing Khairil was like the best ever! We became crazy people! lolx! Lurvve my sis lots! *Muackz*

To summarize, met alot of people at the expo, my sec sch teacher!! like finally since I didn't get the chance to meet him when he got transfer to RP while I was still there...He still recognises after exchanging glances & waving to say hello since I was in the car passing by him & his wife. Then, I waved at Hyrul after he saw my dad pointing upon seeing him in the car(that was when we just reached the Expo & before taking pictures). Getting up close with rest was the best experience & feeling ever. I really hope that this is just the begining of everything. :)

My sis was a bit mad at me coz I didn't take photos with them...I told her its ok...more to come, I just know! Although I didn't take any pictures with either of them, I was contented to have taken the pictures for her & seeing them,argghhhh!!!!!!!!!!(amikkan gambar je dah menggigil kesukaan,kalau amik dgn dorg,boleh pengsan ah)..lolx!

I know you people might think that,'haiya..its nothing big lah'....but well, at the end of the day, its still my blog, I'll post whatever I feel like to. :)

(part ni tgh ketawe pasal gelagat si shah...klakar tul dier)

For some reason, the other stuffs I wanna blog about is not as greatful as this....heheh!

p.s. I just know! My intuition says sooo. :)

omigod!

2006-07-15T01:12:00.000+08:00

Have you ever had someone who keeps on pestering and bugging you and never ever gives up? Eventhough you had to be the 'bad' person and said your piece hoping he leaves you alone??? Don't you think it's kinda irritating at times?? Hayiooh....

I just don't know what to say anymore. I thought I have said my piece & thought that he could get the message but looks like it didn't turn out the way I hoped. Anyways, on the other hand, knowing who he is, I know that he won't give up easily. But then again, you can't make me do something I don't like to do. The matters of the heart is a complicated one that you shouldn't rush. I have only regarded you as a friend and I want it to stay that way for now.

I have my own reasons for doing and saying so. You don't have to know what it is because I don't see the importance of you to know them. And at times, some things or decision don't necessarily need or have a reason. But it seems to you that everthing must have reasons. Everytime I said 'no', it must be followed with reasons why. Now, as I write this post, I'm wondering if he ever understood what I had said? Doesn't it hurt him?

Though the words may have hurt your feelings but I can't please everybody and always be an angel. I would lurve to be an angel to everyone so that I can make everybody happy and be there for all of you.

I don't want to love to hate people.

........

2006-07-14T01:05:00.000+08:00

I don't know why you keep ignoring me everytime I tried to talk to you. I'm still your friend you know. It doesn't mean you already a special someone, you can just ignore me. I don't know if I did something wrong or what. Don't ignore me can?? Just a simple 'hi' is enough to know that you still acknowledge me as one of your friends.

I'm not sure whether you even read this post which I think you don't even care to. I just wanna say out what I feel. If I have done something wrong, I'm sorry.

2006-07-13T20:20:00.000+08:00

So saddened by the news. Takziah kpd keluarga Allahyarham Ishak Ahmat. Al-Fatihah. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya. AMIN.

Mistress of Spices

2006-07-11T13:31:00.000+08:00

Met up with my dear Hani yesterday and we went down to the far(not that far lah..hehe) east. We catched a movie, Mistress of Spices, it is a nice movie and I don't mind buying the cd to watch it again as I told Hani. Lurrvvve it lots! Then we went down to Parkway Parade. The last time I went there when I was still living in the east. It has more & cool shops now and it till be my new spot now..

I agree with Hani, dah lama tak jumpa byk yg dibualkan dan yang nak bualkan...hehhe I was glad to meet you yesterday..we talked non-stop except in the theater,duhz! 3 bulan tak jumpa sey...I missed you ofcoz & I miss the talking too..hahah! I can't wait for our next date...Starbucks and Candy Empire :) Thanx eh Hani!...tho I felt tired & slept early, it was bcoz I was too happy and delighted to see you yesterday! Till then..tatatititutu!

p.s Am still shocked and still not believing it tho.

new haircut

2006-07-09T14:34:00.000+08:00

Yesh...I had my haircut yesterday. Since sec 5, that was almost 5 years I've been keeping a long hair. So now, its back to the basics with my short hairstyle...I wasn't sad lah when the lady cut my hair coz I was looking forward to my short hair..hehe! My mum can still say that my hair mcm ekor lembu...(wat sey...hahah...whateverlah)

When my sis said that I looked like when I was back in pri sch with the new haircut, I was like "eh...u remembered sey",hahha! But during my pri sch days, my hair was shorter & you can say that I was a tomboy back then. To those who know me..you all should know ah...But I'm different now, no longer the tomboy...hehe & I'm happy with myself now & then....in fact, lurrrvvve it!

p.s Prayers for my grandfather, aunt, ct & dwarfiq to get well soon! :)

2006-07-07T22:49:00.000+08:00

I loike!!! but still prefer dark choc tho...

You are White Chocolate

You have a strong feminine side with a good bit of innocence thrown in.
Whether your girlish ways are an act or not, men like to take care of you.
You are an understated beauty, and your power is often underestimated!

What Kind of Chocolate Are You?

2006-07-07T22:43:00.000+08:00

It's true enough...

You're Confident...Sometimes

You can seem confident when the occasion calls for it
But inside you may be experiencing a bit of self doubt
A little more inner confidence could take you far...
And convince others that you're as confident as you try to seem

Are You Confident?

2006-07-07T22:34:00.000+08:00

Is it me or is this freaky & weird?

You'll Find a Boyfriend Within 3 Weeks

You're out enough to meet plenty of guys
And it shows, because a few are interested in you
Even if you haven't meet the right guy yet
He's standing just around the corner :-)

When Will You Meet Your Next Boyfriend?

2006-07-05T16:46:00.000+08:00

I'm doing this to kill my boredom......heh

You Are a Prophet Soul

You are a gentle soul, with good intentions toward everyone.
Selfless and kind, you have great faith in people.
Sometimes this faith can lead to disappoinment in the long run.
No matter what, you deal with everything in a calm and balanced way.

You are a good interpreter, very sensitive, intuitive, caring, and gentle.
Concerned about the world, you are good at predicting people's feelings.
A seeker of wisdom, you are a life long learner looking for purpose and meaning.
You are a great thinker and communicator, but not necessarily a doer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

2006-06-25T02:30:00.000+08:00

Just came back from the trip to Jusco(across the causeway). I'm soo tired but I can't wait to blog about this...heheheh! Man,it was like the food haven(read:THE) there which I ever went to so far ah...hahahaha! The food really has its varieties and yummylicious. Me & my family was going like oohh..ahhh...food and food and food. Its like the only thing we were looking forward to was the food there....wahaha! And its a pretty big place....seriously. And from one end to the other is fun...you know why??? Bcoz we went in almost every shop that catch our eyes...Me, mum & sis...us 3 went in to, espescially the shoe shops....all the shoes were calling me....arghhhhh, I almost(read:almost) went crazy over those shoes. While my dad & bro goes to the sports section. It closes @ 11pm, so you can shop till a bit later....(mcm manenye shopping centre nak shop abis2)...lolx!

But we didn't really buy anything except for food...lots of it..heheh! The other stuffs can wait, so this means I'll be going there again and SOON! Yayness! It will be a frequent trip for us!!!

2006-06-20T00:27:00.000+08:00

Arghhh....I thought that Shah & Akhmar gonna make it!! Can see that Shahril was shocked that he made the cut, same goes for Shah himself. I can't believe it too! Me, my mum & sis were like screaming coz we were damn shocked...Still can't believe it but I still belive that Shah & Akhmar can go far & have a bright future. Surianny & Effandy did great too. Anyways, to Huda & Shahril, make the best of your success & career and go out there and do your best & make us proud!(",)

Father's Day Celebration

2006-06-19T02:57:00.000+08:00

Last Sat was my lil sis 14th birthday and so to celebrate, we went to Swensens @ Changi Airport. When we reached there, the queue was quite long man, maybe due to that the next day is Fathers' Day. But luckily it wasn't a long wait...still my dad was like, "aiyah...waste my time lah, there's soccer match tonight" hahahah! I was like...lerrr, guys...hahha!

So we had fish & chips 'n' ice-cream...both having the Father's Day offers..so the price was okaylah...I was really full sey....What not, we ate & laugh at the same time, so the laughter air entered my stomach...lolx! Too bad lah, my bro couldn't join us bcoz he was watching 'Muzikal Rock Opera' @ Esplanade.

My tummy was kinda bloated by the time I finish my ice-cream...hahha! Lastly, thanx ayah for the treat...whereas it should be the ither way round sey..it should be me paying instead of my dad...hehe! gotta wait till someone hires me then I can pay eh.. :)

Tag-Oh-Tag

2006-06-18T01:05:00.000+08:00

Arh...I've been tagged by my dear cuzzen, Feera to do the quiz. So, herre goes:

3 SCHOOLS I WENT TO:
~Bedok View Pri(no longer around)
~Woodlands Ring Sec
~Republic Polytechnic

3 THINGS I PUT IN MY PURSE/BACKPACK:
~my handphone
~my wallet
~my keys

3 THINGS I DO WHEN I AM STRESSED:
~call my fren to vent it all out & cry
~listen to the radio(it does help tau)
~sleep

3 PLACES I GO ON A DAILY BASIS:
~toilet
~kitchen
~my bedroom

3 FAVOURITE FRUITS:
~apple
~mango
~cherries

3 OF MY FAVOURITE FOOD:
~mee bandung
~ice-cream
~mutton chop

3 NAMES I GO BY:
~siti
~farhana
~ana

3 THINGS I'M WEARING RIGHT NOW:
~my bracelet
~purple nightgown
~my specs

THE WHO'S...

WHO IS IN THE HOUSE WITH ME:
~the whole family except my bro

WHO AM I THINKING OF RIGHT NOW:
~no one exactly

WHO DID I LAST TALK ON THE PHONE WITH:
~my uncle

WHO DID I SIT WITH DURING MY 5TH PERIOD CLASS:
~hmmm...shakhira, I think(back in sec sch days)

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON I TOLD THAT I LOVED:
~to someone in my dream,heh~

WHO DO I WISH I AM WITH RIGHT NOW:
~my loved ones

WHO GETS ON MY NERVES IN SCHOOL:
~I can't remember ah..

THE WHERE'S...

WHERE IS MY PHONE:
~in my handbag

WHERE DO I SLEEP:
~on the bed,duhz!(err, sometimes on the sofa)

WHERE IS THE PLACE THAT I TOOK A RIDE TO:
~just now to Swensens, to celebrate my sis b'day & Father's Day

WHAT WAS THE LAST THING I ATE:
~fish & chips 'n' hot fudge choc ice-cream

WHAT COLOUR SHIRT AM I WEARING:
~purple nightgown

WHAT IS THE CLOSEST ITEM TO ME THAT IS BLUE:
~my precious hp

WHAT DO I LIKE MOST ABOUT SCHOOL:
~my frens

WHAT IS MY FAVOURITE COLOUR:
~blue, brown, green(it changes depends on my mood for that day)

WHAT DO I WEAR OFTEN JEANS/SHORTS:
~jeans

WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE I WATCHED:
~Sepet & Gubra(double-bill, courtesy of my aunty)

THE WHEN'S...

WHEN DID I START SCHOOL:
~PAP when I was 4

WHEN DID I LAST GO TO THE MALL:
~last wed with my sis to buy my bro's belated b'day gift

WHEN DID I LAST BURN SOMETHING:
~few days ago I burnt my bread

3 unlucky people to do this quiz:
~Hani(haven't heard from her for quite sometime)
~Miss Elegance(coz she hasn't updated for a while now)
~Rina(enjoyz!)

I'm Soo Confused

2006-06-13T01:50:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I just don't understand what is it that my mum wants out of me? There are times I feel that whatever I do can never be enoguh for her nor can she be satisfied...I'm tired of guessing whether the things that I do is up to her standard or will it the right thing to do? I don't know what else to do.

Recently, she said that she wants me to find a job a.s.a.p! But today when I got home from an interview and told her that I told the interviewer I'm available anytime if I got selected for the job, she laugh it off saying,"pandai-pandai je anytime". And I was like,"ape sey"? Which one is it does she want?

On one hand she wants me to work while on the other hand she wants me to stay at home and help her. I don't mind helping her afterall it's part of my responsibility too, but till how long am I gonna stay at home and help her? I have my own life too. She keeps telling me that I'm too dependant on her. If she don't let me go out & experience the world myself how am I gonna build my confidence and be self-independant??? If I tell her what I feel or express my concern, she will say something that will make me feel all guilty with her words. Then, if I tried talking back at her, I'll be an ungrateful daughter and also its sinful to talk back to our parents in Islam, espescially to our mother. But how can I get my msg across to her & expressing to her my thoughts without being call a bad daughter?

I think that was it and I had enough. I can't control my feelings anymore and I cried myself in my room. It doesn't change a thing because she still don't seem to understand and I'm still confused not knowing whether I'm doing the right thing. Atleast I feel abit better after crying & my tears are all I have.

p.s. All I wanted was to have a shoulder to lean on and for you to lend a listening ear to me but you don't seem to care & I think its true when they say that you are a less caring person.

HAPPY 2OTH BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR BROTHER!

May you'll always succeed in the future and stay strong through the hardships in life! Lurve ya!

p.s. Please don't take it to heart about today's event. Have more patience, okay?

Weddings

2006-06-11T16:30:00.000+08:00

So, I attended one of my relative's wedding yesterday. It's been sometime since I attended wedding ceremonies. It was nice just seeing all my relatives, both distant & near. FYI, my family tree is rather complicated so that explains why it's nice seeing all my relatives. One thing about attending weddings are having people asking when's my turn & I'll easily answer to them,"not yet lah" & I just laugh it off. Not anytime soon because it's not at the top of my priority list at the moment! So, wait long long ah people! Wahahaa!

2006-05-21T20:06:00.000+08:00

Yesternite, my mum needed a new pair of shoe so we went to Causeway Pt. We went from shops to shops. At the end of the day me, sis & mum got ourselves each a new pair of shoes....heheh! My sis finally got what she have been eager to have,MP3 player. She won't stop asking until she got what she wants. That girl ah..haiyoyo! Then today, she made a new pair of specs...In 2 days, she had my dad spending at least 200 bucks for her needs.

Early in the morning went for the Big Walk. Only me & my dad went coz the others had other things going on. Oh well, I still enjoyed spending the day with my dad. That's the time I got to hangout with my dad...heheh! Though we didn't really join the walk this time round, we sure did make ourselves busy collecting the goodie bags & whatever the freebies available.....And we're not the only ones....hahaha!

In the afternoon, went to the kenduri (in eng: a feast to ask for blessings held for my late uncle). I still miss his presence and it is still quite emotional for me. Things felt different. Semoga Allah Mencucuri Rahmat Ke-Atas Rohnya. AMIN.

2006-05-20T02:59:00.000+08:00

The trip to KL was better that I have anticipated earlier. It actually turn out better (aside from me being moody for no reason or whatsoever...) and I must say we (my family) really had a great time as one family. As it has been so so long our family go on a holiday trip, this one really help us to enjoy ourselves as well as building a closer bonds for us. Although my dad was the only one driving cause aparently he's the only one with license...me, mum & bro had to take turns to sleep so that to accompany my dad to prevent him from getting bored, being awake alone & furthermore driving at night. Alhamdulillah, everything was good. Not much of a jam cause we went through the second link. Although I don't have my digicam with me cause it's spoilt, atleast I get to snap some photos using my mum's hp while I'm there.

Our first stop was to Sheikh Afifuddin's house. I tell you the house is amazing, built at the hilltop and from there you can see the view of KL...it's soo magnificient!

The beautiful sunset from inside the dining room.

Sis & Me passing time by taking pictures of ourselves.

One of their beautiful tea sets.

Then, off we went to spent a night in a hotel, we initially thought of Concorde Hotel cause it was quite cheap for a 5-star hotel. When we arrived there, we were told that the lower level rooms for RM120 (it's cheap you know!) are all booked. Since we were only staying just for a night, we felt that the price of RM290 for the upper level rooms did not worth it. We'd rather go shopping..heheh! The hotel is located in the golden triangle of Kuala Lumpur. Since it's the weekend, it was busy with people clubbing, partying etc, until the road was really jam packed. And I saw a familiar face at the hotel.

Sis & Me at Concorde Hotel(background can't be seen ah)

We ended up spending the night at Hotel Plaza which has a cheaper rate since it is a 3-star hotel. Still it was good enough for us to stay in as long as we get to sleep and there's breakfast(it was good too). After checking in, our family and another couple fren of ours decided that we were feeling hungry and decided to go out and look for food and our watches showed the time was almost 2am. Are we nuts izzit??? LOL! Luckily there was some open stalls around there and we ate like nobody business!! Imagine we were half-sleepy yet hungry....*shakes head* wahaha! While walking back to the hotel, we saw some red-lights streets. Man, it really opened or eyes big big, and KL never sleeps I tell you. It was still busy and filled with noises from the motorists racing even in the wee hours. Haiyoyo people!

The next morning after breakfast, we headed down to MYDIN store for some SHOPPING!!!
While waiting for Cik Rafiah & Cik Akhbar, we helped ourselves to the camera:

I lurrrveeee it! I got myself a pair of shoe & a handbag and other stuffs too. We continued shopping and we came across this place, we called it KL's Geylang Serai as the place looked similar and you can get anything there and you can really bargain with the prices. Also, there's this one shop really plays their music OUT LOUD and it was Dangdut and the place was filled with many indonesians..I wasn't feeling comfortable walking there for a long time. Anyways, we did get alot of stuffs for ourselves.

Then, it was time to depart to Masjid Persekutuan Wilayah Kuala Lumpur(I hope I got it right) for the Maulid Eulogy. The Maulid Eulogy was a, I considered a grand function which was attended by many VIPs from Iran, Iraq, UK etc. I would like to go again next year. I really felt peace and at ease when I was there reciting the Maulud Al-Daiba'i.

I'm just amazed by the ever so beautiful interior designs, I didn't get a chance to snap pictures when I was in the mosque.

I hope to set my feet there at the twin towers.

Now, I can't wait for another family outing, the Big Walk this sunday! Woohoo! Hope everything goes as planned. Insya allah!

2006-05-19T16:51:00.000+08:00

Yesh, finally a new layout for me! Been cracking my brain coz I have wanted to change the previous layout but just don't know what designs to use that really let me express myself in my own blog. So, I decided to give this layout with a touch of my own. And, voila!

2006-05-13T00:18:00.000+08:00

Okay, firstly I just wanna wish my sec sch fren whose birthday is today, 13th May. Happy 21st Birthday Izaan. May you always stay happy wherever you are!

Secondly, I know we Muslim should not believe much about the horoscopes but what I've found is actually kind of true.

It's one thing to want a change,
it's another to initiate it. Make new choices.

Instead of following your usual routine today, why not mix it up?
Make new choices in your everyday decisions and
you will be amazed at the things that can start happening.

Take your coffee a new way, try a vegan lunch,
travel a new route home
-- this new way of doing will create a new way of thinking,
and possibly even a new way of being.
It sounds nutty, but it is true.
Your biggest transformation could start with a left turn
instead of a right one.

Lastly, goodbye for now!

2006-05-12T14:58:00.000+08:00

For a moment I felt that as if the dream was real. But to bad it was just dream yet it made my day alot better. For some reason we ( me & the person in the dream) are actually talking to each other. I wished that happen in reality and everything will be great!!!

So today is a public holiday...Happy Vesak Day to the Buddhist community. And for the long weekend I'll be spending my time in KL for some religious function.

Ohhh what a nice day to sleep in with the rain pouring down heavily....

2006-05-08T23:57:00.000+08:00

My second entry for the day...Just finish cleaning up the house after the diba'i. But not shining clean yet lah of course...tired lah, so thought of blogging for awhile....hehhe! I suggested to my Mum that we cooked Spaghetti Bolognese today and being my mum who loves to cook and share, we cooked more plus fruits salad, hot longan drink and Konyaku jelly. Suddenly I remembered someone when I looked at the Spaghetti dish. I remebered him saying that he likes the spaghetti that I cooked. How sweet of him :) If only things were as simple as the past........

I was watching this malaysia drama series yesterday-Aku Cinta PadaMu(translate:I Love You)which features Hadi Putera...my fav actor...hehhe! And yah, while I was watching the part where he was talking to his sweetheart which is the sad part, suddenly I was crying and tears flowing down...I realised that I really misses him alot. I just couldn't help it but just let the tears flow willingly. Because I can't lie to myself that I still have feelings for him. I know I have made the decision...there are times when I don't think of you but the times that I think of you, it really feels like a heart-wrenching feeling. I missed you alot. If only you know...........

Yesterday a guy in blue really really really made my day! I can just faint when I see what I saw....wahaha! So dramatic kan?? heheh!

Oh well...somebody is back already...hehhe! Nice to hear from you just now.

Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

2006-05-08T09:14:00.000+08:00

I've been yearning to blog but I don't know just what to write about. Apart from being jobless, my life is pretty much the same everyday. It's always the same routine...I mean is this how our MUMs whom are full-time housewife do everyday when their husbands are out working and while their children are at school? I guess so huh coz I pretty much doing what I just said....hahahha!

And yes!! I'm still jobless...why?? *shakes head* Maybe I'm not the working material?? LOL! Maybe I should start a home-based business..hmmm! Oh well, my parents are worried bout me coz I'm like stuffing myself at home doing nuthing BUT I am doing something at home just coz that is what I always do at home. I have had my parents and aunt suggesting me applying for NIE, I still haven't make up my mind yet. I do love teaching(tuition) and my ambition when I was a kid is to be a teacher and I do love kids. I bet they are still thinking where to send me next and what to do with me.....LOL!!!!

Ooopsie...I gotta go first...I'll continue later..

2006-04-19T23:25:00.000+08:00

I tell you..I never felt soooo the silly sey...did some silly things at home-no logical at all, silly things happen in the bus trip home from Tampines with my mum and other other silly stuffs. But I had fun laughing at myself though....wahaha! And oh, I met Nurul,my RP mate at Tampines Int. We were like calling each other from afar (not that far lah) but I can say that it was quite loud. Macam dah lama tak jumpe gitu but yeah since we finish school...I can't wait for the grad ceremony to see all the graduating Republicans.

2006-04-16T23:41:00.000+08:00

Arghhhhh!!! I missed the Suria's Anugerah Live In Concert...too bad lah! Saw the clips on Suria Segar....Khairil sang 'Asmara Ini' by Fazley....Nevermind lah..I shall wait for the next one...that is if there will be a next one...wahahah!

Oh well...the day I had yesterday was fun too. Going out once in a while really help me to relax & get some fresh air. Really!! I have been stuffing myself at home since the last day of school. Yesterday made dinner plan with Hani & also asked Said along since he's going off to Brunei. Dinner at Cavana was kinda delicious, it was my first time there. I had the Sweet & Sour chicken rice and it was delicious. After dinner, as usual, we walked around Esplanade and had conversation. We did alot of catching up since we last met. Then we were hanging around watching a performance On The Waterfront when Hani told me something which made me laugh out sey. I didn't expect it to came from her. Though she has told me once before, I mean I'm not surprised or shocked but am shocked and surprise...It's like you don't expect it and at the sametime you expected it?? Get it? You don't? Nevermind...hahahha! It's for me & Hani to know only!! I find them cute too sometimes. It'll be our little, little secrets...wahaha! :-p

Saw many familiar faces out there...& was shocked to see my sec sch mates with their dressing..we were like what's with the outfit man?? Then we came across a group of people trapped in the lift(kesian...cobaan) and one of them made funny faces, he really made the 2 of us laughed our heart out and he seems to enjoy it!!! *rolls eyes*

And for our last stop....it's where you can get Star & Kopi(coffee) together...They no longer have Rhumba Frap on the menu...there goes my fav drink! Aniwaes, still enjoy my time whenever I'm there. Like the saying on one of the posters: "Coffee Improves Some People Days and Others' Whole Lives." I totally agree very the much! And yesterday Said was the talkative one among us coz he talked non-stop, thanks to my Lakerol sweets Grape-flavoured. The tag-name was: "makes some people talk." I don't mean it as a bad thing coz he was so stressed that I think those sweets does help a bit....I hope sooo ya fren! I was just being a good fren...you know that! :-p I was sipping my Mocha Frap when I saw this guy. I thought he was cute(Hani thinks so too) with the goatee but too bad lah...there was something which I saw & I really don't like it...sorry man. Gotta give it a pass....if only it wasn't there.

p.s. I hope you guys like the cake. It was just a simple gift for my best frens! And have a good trip Said & don't go astray aite fren....wahahaha!!! *shakes head*

p.s. I know it was too much of a coincidence you might think but I don't know...

p.s. I think I have made up my decision about U & I hope I'm making the right one coz I'm still scared inside of me. The thought of losing U.....

Ehkk....brape banyak p.s. dah...lol!

yang Sudah Tu Sudah! Man, I really love that song!!!

2006-04-03T22:15:00.000+08:00

Happy 22nd Anniversary Ibu & Ayah!!!
Semoga ibu & ayah selalu bahagia bersama dan juga disamping anak-anakmu! c",) *muakz*

Since my last entry, everything seems fine....I could say our life is much better but never did I expect it to ends herre coz I know the problem still lingers around....hanging around like air.

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At last I get the time to sit down & update. I have been busy with kenduri-kendara & maulud. Till I really didn't go out much nowadays....feel so bored sometimes but to think of it right, I could save my money for better things the next time. I do not mind about it anyway...I'll be lying if I say that I don't feel bored not as to stay at home, and I'm human and I have my desires and indulgence too. So to those people who keeps asking me, "aren't you bored staying at home? even on weekends?". I would always reply to them, "is it wrong to stay at home? does not mean whhen the weekends come, I have to go out!" Please lah....I'm more bored answering that question than staying at home okay! It's my life anyway.....& I feel much safer staying at home! Man I feel good expressing myself...it's been looooong enough!

2006-03-21T23:31:00.000+08:00

Lots have been goin on in my life. I know that its part and parcel of life that anyone goes through. It's a test from HIM and I know that HE would not test us if HE do not know that we can handle and overcome the test.

Me & family are goin through, I shall say, quite a rough patch period now. I pray that we can overcome this hurdle as a family and put the past behind us. Espescially to my mum, she's all stressed up because of this and, as a daughter, it saddens me to see her like this. I wish everything will be turn out alright and always hope that we will go back to live with peace and harmony as one family. I do not know how long this period will last because it is a very serious case and I do not dare to anticipate the results of this...*plz pray for me & family k peepz* Insya Allah

If only u are herre for me....

2006-03-08T22:03:00.000+08:00

I'm so exhausted after helping my mum out the whole day today.....although it's not that much but I felt beat. While I'm free at the moment, it's the time I help out at home here and there abit, right? Well, atleast I get to do something. It's a good feeling you know when I get to help my mum. Hmm...wondering if I make a good housewife in the future?? But then, I admit that sometimes I can be a lazybum, a couch potato and ignorant. How how??? But hey, I'm learning to be a better person okay. Today I'm suppose to meet up with my gerlfrens for dinner date. But since my mum needed me at home, so I did not meet up with them. Hope you gerls had a great time. Sorry I had to give it a miss, maybe next time k gerls.....I really miss all of you gerls tau!hehe!!

p.s. Salam takziah untuk keluarga Allahyarhamha Nurasyura. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke-atas rohnya. Amin.

2006-03-05T23:14:00.000+08:00

So,I finally finish sch. Time passed so quickly that makes me feel like I just start poly yesterday. Haizz...tick tock tick tock....3 yrs gone and the day that I thought I can't wait for it to come actually became the day I dread the most. No more UTs, FYPs, CE pts, PPs etc...Nevertheless, polytechnic life is one of the best experiences in my life...I so miss RP! So,that's poly life & now hello working world....
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Just came back from watching double bill movie of Sepet & Gubra. I must say that it was definitely an eye-opener for me. It was a movie 'bout passion, care & concern, love and forgiveness for people of different races. It was really touching story and yet funny at the same time...The movie has a very deep meaning behind all the words in the script. It was very poetic and brief. I remember this quote, "There are many different lamps. But the lights are still the same."(hope I quote it correctly, hehe) But, sadly I can't remember the poet's name....If you guys wanna read the review, you can go to moviexclusive.com, to read it....better still catch the movie....hehe! And yeah, I so wanna catch the DVD for Rabun, Sepet & Gubra! Watching it once is not enough for me...hehehe! And thanx to my aunt & cuz for treating me aite...*muackz*

Sharifah amani & Yasmin Ahmad during Q&A with the audiences after the movies.

Oh yah...Channel 5 showed the movie Chocolat earlier in the afternoon..didn't really catch it...its one of my favourite movie...know why??? It is because..it has chocolates in it..so full of it & it varies...yummlicious!

p.s. To my choc boy: I'm still waiting for mine.
It is weird that while watching the movie, makes me think of someone whom I never think would cross my mind. So so weird...Well, like 'you' said it's nice to know that there's someone who cares & concern for you.

~why do we hurt the most,the ones we love the most~

2006-02-22T23:15:00.000+08:00

Finally I get to rest & sit at home on a Wednesday. This was because the previous Wednesdays was spent doing my FYP with my makcikz...only God knows how tough it had been for us. I get to slack around & get to help my mum. It was definite a good feeling...Watched Teman Anugerahku, it was okay..not bad, it was funny thinking of it though.

Yesterday, surprisingly my class finished earlier that I expected. The lesson was not boring as usual, it was even better. We needed to invent something..& you can never imagine what my classmates came out with their team's invention. Speaking of which..I think I'm gonna miss them, gonna miss my poly frens....1 more week

2006-02-20T23:33:00.000+08:00

Wahhh...I'm so tired out after the trip to the zoo,sponsored by my bro. Oh well,not really sponsor lah...it was more like a staff family day. Oh, if you still figuring...my bro working in one of the restaurants in the zoo. So yeah, all our entrance fee was discounted....cool right? I have been wanting to go to the zoo anyway....so that was the chance, why not go for it right?? Hehhhe!

So he brought his gf along, I was not surprised but it totally felt awkward because she's my friend of the same age with me. It's not like I have a problem with it...its just that, it felt weird. Imagine one of your close friend dates your younger bro? What would you do & feel? No hard feelings okies but I apologize if you felt uneasy or uncomfortable today. Just want to let you know how I felt cause at one side is my bro & at the other is my friend, "yelah, tak orang tak kitakan"....haiz...*shrugs* Let time tell & decides...

Well anywasy, saw some new adopted animals in the zoo & there'll be an Australian Outback in June 2006, go & check it out peepz! Hmmm..I think my next adventure will be the Jurong Bird Park...long time since I visited the birds.....hahahhaha!

Later in the evening, met up with Hani & Said....it was like they knew I'm bored at home when they called me..and chill out till like 9.30 I think...hehhhe. We shall do it often yeah guys...with friends like both of you really cheer up my day, thanx! Luv you guys!

2006-02-18T22:08:00.000+08:00

Went to my Arabic classes today. Initially I thought it was gonna be boring coz I went alone.....its not that I need friends or family members around but atleast I will have someone to share the knowledge with and at least there's some company. Imagine I have to travel all the way from the north to the east...quite a long journey you know. But...it turn out great actually, there were people I know from the previous program I went...so it wasn't that bad lah...in fact I saw some familiar faces and that really makes my day. The prof also not bad...crack alot of jokes but still pertaining to the lesson. It was good lah, atleast I won't feel bored for the three & a half hours....I'm soo looking forward to the coming lessons and also the zoo trip tomorrow....woohooo!

2006-02-17T23:52:00.000+08:00

Butterflies in my stomach...dilemma is what I felt, I can never avoid or run away from these emotional states........No matter how hard I hard try, it won't go off. I hate it when I'm feeling like this....it makes me think too much. Is that why I have been feeling giddy all this while.....???? Waduh2.....Why ah....why making some simple decisions can also be stressful. Though I really hate it when I have those feelings...it's just natural for humans to go through it. I felt that I had the 'worse' dilemma these few days.....it is soo tiring. I really needed to talk to someone about this.....you-know-who-you-are! After school, met up with Hani & chill at our usual place.....sipping our cup of coffee. Had the "girl talk" and there was alot of things I did not know initially, right Hani....hehehee! Really had a good chat with Hani, sorry about just now. For a moment, I felt I cannot hold back what I was feeling all this while and talking about "it", I cannot hold back my tears. Thanx for being there Hani....I really appreciate it. And thanx for the doughnuts.

Had a conversation with one of my fac about planning for career and my future. One thing I remembered him saying was that, "Before you start doing your career plan..think of your retirement then you work backwards. As in think of how much savings you want to have so that you will know what kind of job will help you reach your target." More or less he has help me to sort things out....Speaking of which --- 2 weeks time & I'm done with school.....so fast time flies, it felt just like yesterday I started school...haizzz. And now I have to start looking for a job? Aiyoyo.....what job is suitable for me eh??? Hmmm......I'm also not sure ah....whaha! With the predicted results I have been seeing....it's disappointing and unsatisfying. I do not know how am I going to fair at the end of the semester. But by hook or by crook..I still want to make it possible for me to achieve my goals of goin to University abroad.

2006-02-15T23:26:00.000+08:00

Mood: Bored and Lonely

Hi people...I know I know....I've not been updating for quite sometime, well I've make a comeback now. Too busy with my FYP, I'm relieved that my FYP is over finally except for the results....I'm still anxious what grade I willl get for the project. 2 more test & 2 more weeks before school is over.....I definitely gonna miss the school and especially the experience being in a polytechnic life....unique and unforgettable ones.

My mood have not been that steady these few days.
Life is so unpredictable....I guess I'm too caught up with the loss of my uncle who passed away last Sat. Can't believe that he's gone for good.. gonna miss his presence.....*Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas RohNya. Amin* Miss him so much until I have recollections of my late uncle......haizzzz.

If only someone is here now for me to share my sadness.....where are you? where is he?

2006-01-23T13:39:00.000+08:00

It's been a while huh...........

Oh well..last Sat went out for an outing with Hani and Said to celebrate my birthday,Ros could not make it due to unforseen circumstances. But nevermind,we can go out together another day. The day started with us having lunch at Swensens...had Chilli Pasta, fries and Merri Mint ice-cream...yummylicious! Then, suddenly I the magic question to Hani, "Tak beli ape2 nari?" hehehe! Just coz I know she would usually buy something when we're out....hehehee! Don't 'kill' me k Hani...:-p We also exchange gifts.....I really like the gifts..thanx guys....and Said hopefully you like the gift from us.. :-)

After that we head to Candy Empire & got our chocs...thanx to Said for treating us.....and not forgetting...our window shopping......few stuffs that caught my eyes.....shoes and handbag from FILA, shoes...shoes....and shoes...hehhe.....and also perfumes...I want new shoes and that FILA handbag...after I saw a woman holding it in the mrt as we on the way home...Hani said something, "that's a a sign for you to buy the bag".....ooohh, it really got my attention & I wanna own one myself.

So, we landed ourselves @ Starbucks for our final stop...I needed the caffeine but ended up buying a Green Tea Frap...we sat and relax while Hani made her decision on whether to buy the Ralph Lauren perfume set we saw earlier..it was having a promo and I tell you..it's really a good promo price which comes with a handbag....the latest Ralph Lauren design some more...After much thinking, she decided to buy it coz it is soooo tempting till she was teased by the sales promoter...hahahaha!!!

I just realised something.....all my frens are getting addicted to Starbucks...wahahah....i know i know its my 'fault'...hehehhehe!!! Aniwaes, i know you all enjoying it....oh well...hehhee!! Lastly, I wanna say thanx again to Sofia, Raudhah, Siti Hajar, Shak, Hani, Ros, Said, Feera & Ee Ling and...my Makcikz...and to all those I know...*muackz* *muackz* *muackz*

2006-01-18T14:39:00.000+08:00

Today I'm a year older & hopefully a year wiser when comes to my thinking and knowledge. Semoga Allah panjangkan umurKu, dimurahkan rezekiKu, moga2 aku jadi anak yang solehah, hamba Allah yang sejati & akhir skali ingin ku dipertemukan dengan lelaki yang baik untukKu (ehem..ehem). Had a bad start though but my birthDAY went okay..just spent it at home..sitting watching TV..well, finished designing my PP poster & my presentation is next Wed (arghh..scared & nervous and excited at the same time). Hey although I'm no longer a teen, I'm still a youth..hahaha! Many thanks to all my well-wishes, I really appreciate it very very much! I can't wait for the surprise that awaits me this Sat..heheh!

Since its my 21st birthday today, lets recap the events that happen the last few days of my 20th years. I went to visit my uncle who have been in the hospital for almost 3 weeks now-he loses alot of wight due to the colon cancer that he has been suffering since 5 years ago. He looks so thin and I can't control myself & cried to see the state he is in now..Now, whenever I visits him, I try to hold back my tears coz I don't want to make him feel more sad than what he's feeling right now. The doctor said that they cannot do anything more and now we have to depend on alternatives..kita masih boleh ikhtiar dengan cara2 lain seperti perubatan Islam..its what we have been doing..insya allah!

Next, I was down with a fever for few days-ape tu org dulu2 kata, maklumlah dah nak besar..hahaha! Those few sick days,I wasn't feeling too good what with the rainy season that has finally stop.

Then, my FYP 'deadline' is nearing in less than a month & a lot still needs to be done...aiyoyo..how how??? (arghhh.....!) heheheh!

Oh yeah, I almost forget that today is also my grandparents wedding anniversary! Semoga bahagia selalu disamping orang yang disayang hingga ke akhir hayat! *muackz*
And also to those who shares the same birthday as me...HAPPY BIRTHDDAY TO U ALL TOO...may ure birthday was greatly spent with your loved ones.

Just a small qoute which I got from my friend's MSN nick, that I thought its nice anh hilarious. "Fashion is what one wears oneself. Unfashionable is what other people wears." What's your interpretation?