I've noticed that recently, I teared easily whenever I watched drama serials that features love, sad, couples and whenver I hear or listen to love songs by coincidence or not. I just couldn't control my feelings and willingly let the tears flows...I wasn't sure what I was crying about. I mean yeah, coz I was watching a sad movie or a romantic drama. But deeply I know there was definitely a reason why I cried and that crying wasn't simply just tears flowing down like waterfall making my cheeks all wet, I felt like the tears was letting me, in a way, to help vent out all the feelings, all the emotional state that I have kept long enough in my heart. The tears just kept flowing while all I could do was reminiscing about my life...
Although I'm pretty sure that there is one particular reason for the tears, I couldn't help thinking and asking myself why?? WHY am I crying about that reason?? I shouldn't be crying for the fact that I'm trying hard to forget about that reason. I'm letting go of that reason slowly. But the more I tried, the more the reason I cried. I tried to deny myself but I know its of no use. Still, this can't go on all the time...I can't be crying just because I think of that reason or when that reason crosses my mind when I don't even think about it. It's not easy for the fact apparently.
That is why I won't stop myself from crying or when the tears decides to flow like waterfall. I should just stop and listen to my tears coz tears are all I've got. Crying does help you know, it helps to let go of all the emotions inside and we'll feel better after that. Don't be shy to cry and its not a weakness to cry though people will notice. They don't understand coz they don't feel what you feel...ignore them. Its shameful to cry?? But if you're crying for the right reason, you shouldn't be.
Someday I Will Understand...Biar waktu mengubat rindu, tiada ku mencari sebarang penawar pilu...