PMS-ing

No wonder I've been feeling so hot and perspiring alot yesterday. Even after I've taken a shower..I was also extra thirsty. Apparently, my girl bestfriend came to visit me. Like finally..y? Cause it didn't come for almost 3 months and I was kinda worried already. Now, it's here..so yeah...hahaha!!!


I don't want to lie to myself anymore what's more lying to you just breaks my heart. I've tried my best to make myself love you again but the feelings just not there anymore. I've searched deep down and think through alot the past days. At first I thought I still have feelings for you but I realised it's gone. I hope you don't feel that I've lead you on because I didn't promise you anything in the first too. I hope you don't blame me for all this because it's your fault too. Your 'cold' words have taken it's affect on me. You said you want us to be just friends. Then now, you're back in my life and saying that you want us to be together again. I'm sort of surprised by what you said and you've make me confuse. I don't even know what to do. If I say I miss you, I don't miss you but if I say I don't miss you, I miss you. I don't know how I feel towards you anymore. You yourself am not sure of your decision. So let's not rush anything and just stay as friends. It's for the better I think. Don't you think so??? For now, while you're away overthere, just take good care of yourself ok.